Chapter 7:
"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams"
(Tom Narrating)
Walking with her was so great. I wanted to hold her hand but didn't know if I should. She smiled at me when she spoke and would always allow me to talk when it was my turn, She wasn't annoying like most girls that only wanted to talk about themselves. She was like a cool friend and at the same time even though she didn't know it like my lover. Each time she looked and me and giggled or smiled I would get those butterflies in my stomach. We talked about a lot of things, like how we got interested in music and how much music meant to us. She also shared a bit of where she came from and how her mother died when she was 10 years old. I thought it was sad but she didn't seem to think much about it. Maybe because she didn't want to show sadness in front of me, I didn't speak of anything like that. I was sure she already knew my parents got divorced when Bill and I were little. She didn't ask or comment on that though. She didn't really ask things that were personal or that had to do with my life behind closed doors. I showed the outside people what they wanted to see, I was always polite and nice because no one likes a stuck up celebrity. So I tried to get along with everyone. I was kind of in my own world when she asked...
Tom, Have you ever been in love?
I didn't answer.
Genesis: Sorry, I didn't mean to ask. I was...forget it.
Tom: Yeah, I've been in love before. Have you?
Genesis: Yeah, I've been in love before but I don't know if I've ever TRULY loved someone. You know what I mean? (Looks at him)
(In Tom's mind) That's something I would say, I've said it before. What if she's the type of girl to watch all the interviews we've been in and she's trying to manipulate me so I can fall in love with her? Hmm. I guess I have to go along with it and see.
Tom: Yeah, I understand.
Genesis: Once.
Tom: Once? Once what?
Genesis: There was one person who I truly loved. I was madly in love with him and I loved him more than anything else in the world...
Tom: What happened?
Genesis: Can I trust you?
Tom: What?
Genesis: Can I trust you? If I tell you then you can't tell ANYONE not even Bill.
Tom: You have my word...
Genesis: Let's go to the park and sit down. You want to? (Smile)
Tom: Yeah. Let's go.
Genesis: This way is faster.
She held my hand as she led the way. Her hands were soft and warm, now that I think about it I don't think she ever hated me. I guess Bill was right about first impressions, She gave me a second chance though. We were friends, even though I longed to be more right now I couldn't, but step by step and little by little I'd gain her trust and win her heart. We got to the park and we sat on a bench near a small pond.
Genesis: When I was 16 I was going out with this guy named Damian, We dated for 4 years. I thought he was the one, He was such a gentleman, we never argued about idiotic things and we were always together at school unless he had football practice. But anyway, It was senior year and he asked me to prom. I was so happy and excited to go with him. When I got there with him everyone pointed at me and laughed. I didn't know what was going on. They put a crown on my head that said "Cunt" (The worst possible thing to ever call a woman) A screen projector came on and it was a slide show of me in different outfits. He liked it when I dressed up for him but I never knew someone was taking pictures of me when I was with him. He even video taped us having sex...Everyone around me laughed and made fun of me. They called me names and threw punch all over my dress. When I looked at Damian he smiled and said "You never meant anything to me. I just wanted to get these shots of you. Thanks Doll. Now everyone knows how big of a whore you can be" He kissed the cheer captain right in front of me and said that she was the love of his life....
