What Lies at the End

Chapter 4

I'm sitting on the sofa in the living room together with mom, dad, and Jiwook. We are talking about whether I should go to school or not.

"I'm going to school?" I asked putting my hand up to my neck nervously. "Yes. All the paperwork's been taken care of, so you can start going to school tomorrow." Mom replied smiling to me. Jiwook stared at me. "Unless you're feeling unwell, of course. We just thought it'll be harder for you to catch up if it becomes too late. It's perfectly fine to rest if you're not ready yet." mom said smiling a bit nervous at me.

God. I wanted to go to school, but I never knew it'd be like this... And I'm in my final year in high school? I dropped out in 6th grade. Can... Can I make it...? I looked down at myself with a upgiving look on my face.

"Siwon? You don't seem so eager... I guess it was too soon." Mom said looking sad but also curious over at me. "N-no, I was just thinking... " I replied quickly waving my hands. "Maybe he doesn't want to go back to school." Jiwook interrupted me slurping in his tee. I looked questionably at him. "What do you mean?" mom asked looking scared of what Jiwook was going to say.

"Maybe I shouldn't mention this in front of Hyung but, on the day of the accident, the police did tell us there was a possibility Hyung attempted suicide. It's just a speculation, but if something bad happened to him at school that day, and he attempted suicide because of that, he might not want to return to school, even if he doesn't remember it on a conscious level. Then I'm not sure if hyung going back to school is such a good idea." Jiwook explained looking only at me with a scary face. Mom and dad were surprised and scared.

Okay... So you're telling me, "Don't go to school."

"I'm sorry I had to talk about the accident in front of you, Hyung." He finished looking even scarier and even forcing not to make a smirk. "Oh my god..." Mom took her hands up to her face crying.

To be honest, I would be better off just staying home... BUT!

"I'm fine," I said casually and Jiwook clenched his hand. "If it's okay, I'd like to start tomorrow. School, I mean." I said smiling and making a small grin at Jiwook. I'm not letting you have it your way, you prick.

"Are you really okay? You don't have to push yourself, Siwon." Mom said loudly and look terrified of the situation. "What Jiwook said is mere speculation because he's worried about me. I don't feel uncomfortable about going to school at all," I replied getting about excited for it and a bit scared too.

I actually want to go to school... Was what I said. I was walking on the street looking at the gate from the street to the school ground. Students were walking by as I stood still getting hella nervous about this school thing. But now I'm actually here, I feel like I don't belong in this place. Is it because I had that dream, or is it because this body subconsciously contains bad memories, as he said?

Jiwook walked up to me taking his hand on my shoulder, "Oh, are you scared now? You should learn to gracefully accept things when people actually try to help you. But I admit, it is funny to see you rushing to your doom on your own. Whatever. Have a happy school life, Han Siwon." He said waving his hand making one of those scary smiles again. "I'm not gonna give you any help even if you cry and beg for it like last time," Jiwook said leaving.

"Like last time?" Something must have happened between the two... I know there are brothers who don't get along, but he's way too... Hostile. Well, I don't really care anyway.

"WOW- The rumors were true, then? Mr. Han Siwon is coming back to school, eh?" Some guy with red hair and a black earing came up to me, swinging an arm around me, with some other kids from the school.

"It's soooo fucking delightful to see you again buddy. Do you know how much I missed you?" He said smiling at me. Ugh. What's this? I looked at him angrily "And who are you?" I asked. "HA?! IS THIS FOR REAL?!! YOU REALLY GOT AMNESIA?!!? YOU SURE YOU'RE NOT JUST FAKING IT?!" He yelled and laughed so much he even cried. "Lol, you can't avoid reality like that, haha," Some of the other students said, also laughing.

I see. I can kind of guess what kind of life this guy lived. People around him just try to use him, and everyone else just ignores and stands by. And his brother is at home, strutting around the place, so he never had a chance to feel at ease. You must have been totally alone.

This mind sound harsh to the owner of this body, but this might actually be better for me. It's best to start from the bottom when you have no idea what's going on.

I pushed the guy's hand away from my shoulder, "Morons. If you're going to pretend to be my friends, then you clearly need to practice more." I said with no feeling on my face and walked away from them into the school hearing them stutter a weak "What?"

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A/N: The red haired-guy's vision of the story.

"Hey, is that... really Han Siwon? Holy Shit" I said with my mouth wide open and shocked. "I-I guess...?" The guy beside me with light-brown hair said looking as stupid as me. I could hear people around getting all hyped about me and my friends getting embarrassed.

WHY, Han Siwon you son of a bitch. You dare mock me in front of everyone? I'll teach you a fucking lesson!!"

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A/N: And back again to Siwon who now is in the teachers office.

"I heard everything from your parents. It's going to be tough, starting school in the middle of senior year... But I think you'll catch up soon enough. You're a smart kid" The teacher said not looking like he was worrying too much about anything.

I'm far from being smart, but... "Haha... Okay." I replied looking the other way all shy and feeling dumb as ever. "Let's go to class then." the teacher showed me way down to my classroom. I haven't done anything yet, and I'm already tired... Is school supposed to be this hard?

Well, anyhow... I wanted to go to school, and now I'm here. I might as well... "Everyone, take your seats!" The teacher yelled out in the class as he opened the door... Make the most of... it...? I looked around in the classroom and stopped when I looked at the person who sat over at the window talking to some guy with green hair. My eyes opened widely.

After how many coincidences does it become fate?

"Wow, Shit. Speak of the devil, he's really here." The green guy said loudly and looked over at me with a smirk. "That's the guy I told you who'd be interesting- The man of the hour." the green-haired-guy said.

If this indeed is fate,

"I don't care what you do with him, but don't let it become my problem, Choi Minjun," Woojin said looking disgusted. "Come on, don't treat me like I'm some psycho who goes looking for trouble. I'm just gonna play with him." Choi replied to Woojin with an excited look on his face.

I'm not happy with where this is going at all...