What Lies at the End

Chapter 10

Fuck. I can't concentrate on the questions in this kind of situation. Of course, I wouldn't be able to concentrate even if I wasn't in this kind of situation. Is this a maths question or an English question? If it's math then use numbers only... to be honest, isn't knowing how to add, subtract and multiply enough to get by with life?

ah... I give up now. I don't know the answer so let's just stare at it.

There was an awkward silence as Siwons thoughts were going wild and Woojin then started to tap his finger on the table multiple times. 

"Hey..." Siwon said annoyed by the taps. ".. get it."  Woojin kept looking at Siwon "What?" 

"I don't get it," he said a little louder than he did the first time. "Which part" Woojin asked confidently not understanding how he could not get it. 

"I... I don't get anything at all..." He took himself to his head closing his eyes almost angry and embarrassed with himself. 

Fuck... Woojin was the last guy I wanted to show this side of me... I'd rather you laugh at me now quickly, bastard.

He stayed silent for a bit and he stopped tapping on the table "Isn't it strange?"

" I can't help it. I can't remember anything." He moved his hand from his head. Actually there's nothing for me to remember. 

"No. The fact that someone can change so much just because they lost their memories." Siwon's eyes opened up as he looked at Woojin a bit scared. huh?

"...What are you talking about all of a sudden?" 

Woojin turned on the chair as he leaned over the desk close to Siwon "When I see you, I feel like rather than you've changed just because of your memory loss" He moved closer to him, them almost able to feel each others breath "You act like someone who's lived in a totally different environment... yes.... just like - someone who had to start from the bottom and has nothing to fear." 

Siwon's eyes widened as he just got exposed... 

I did think that I should be careful but I had no intention of living like 'Han Siwon' in the first place so I wanted to act carefully in my own way. Of course, I made a mistake of not taking into account my personality that tends to act before I think... Okay, I admit that I was being careless.

But what about that? Just why did that pique your interest?

Siwon clenched his hand on the table sighing.

If it's because you saw Yoon Taemin from me like last time then Woojin. You have no right to do that. He looked at Woojin mad. Because... The one who left me and disappeared without a single word back then was you.

Ah... thinking about this really pisses me off.

"Haha. Real funny. so what are you trying to say? You think I've become someone else? I get that you like sci-fi and I don't particularly want to shatter your innocence but you better wake up from your..."

Ah fuck, did i say something wrong again? Regretting wanting to bitch at him for being rude in 5 seconds.

" That's right. Funnily enough, I feel like you've actually become someone else." He said in a scary tone smirking at Siwon.

"You're mad" He replied shaking his head.

Woojin sat up straight "I actually might¨ve gone mad."

Hey, if you admit it just like that then I have nothing to say. 

" Haa... okay. Let's say that you're crazy. But why are you suddenly acting like this?" Siwon scratched the back of this head. "Don't you think it's funny that you're doing this after beating up someone just because they pissed you off?"

"Ah. Don't worry about that- Half of me still thinks it feels shitty when I look at you." Woojin stuffed his hands in his pockets.

"Then stop caring so much about me..." 

"And the other half finds you funny" 

"I never intended you to find me funny so stop giving attention to me." He said annoyed twitching his eyes at him.

"If you hate getting my attention so much then do something with your eyes first. It feels like I'll get interested in you even if I wasn't before when you look at me like that. "

"What..?" He kept up with the annoyed look. "I'm talking about you. I don't know whether you realize it yourself or not,-" 

Woojin took his right hand up from his pocket caressed his own face, "Do you know that the expression in your eyes change whenever you see me?... Yes... that look." He smirked at Siwon 

"It makes me go crazy to the point where it pisses me off."

to be continued...