That day, he changed my life (Markiplier x Reader)

"I'm Not Okay"

Cold, salty tears were rolling down my cheek like rainfall.
My breath becoming hard to catch.
I still curled up in a ball on the floor, didn't know what to do with myself.
What if Daisy arrived and saw me like this? I didn't want her to be disappointed.
Or Mark... what an embarrassment... what if he actually came and saw me like this. I looked just horrible. Mascara was probably rolling down along with my tears. My heart had sunk down to my stomach, I could feel it... I was completely hopeless.
What about California? What about our dreams? I completely destroyed them, I wasn't experienced enough. This was about to be my big break, I felt like I couldn't get up and start over. That felt impossible, out of reach completely.

*knock knock knock*

That was either one of two people, Mark or Daisy... either way I didn't have any words to explain this.

I get up shaking and wiping away some tears and I open the door to my well not really surprising, I see mark standing there with his beautiful puppy dog brown eyes looking at me as if they felt sorry for me.
His small smile turned into a frown quickly as he saw me as a wreck.
Without thinking twice he came in for a hug.
God, I felt so much comfort in his arms, it was like my problems had just disappeared.
His strong arms held me so tight and close to him that I could feel his heart beating and I'm sure he could feel mine too, beating much quicker than his.
I could feel his chest, it was strong, not bad if I do say so myself. He had this scent that I could never forget, it was so soothing. He smelled like a forest fresh out of rainfall.
We stood there in each other embrace for a solid 2 minutes then as we separated mark put his hands on my arms and asked me gently,
"(Y/N), what happened to you? Why are you crying?"
I looked at him and sighed then I quickly shut the door.
I was quiet for a few seconds as even I couldn't even process what had just happened.
"It's a long story, Mark," I said still with a shaky voice as I was facing the door.
He walked closer towards me and softly put his hand on my shoulder.
"I have time don't worry, in fact, all the time you need". I could feel him smiling which made me smile ever so slightly, and he saw me, i could tell he was so glad that he at least made me smile ever so slightly. I was glad I had someone there with me, I wasn't completely alone like I thought i would be.

We both walked over to the sofa and sat down close to each other
I buried my head in my hands still trying to process what had happened. Mark put his hand on my shoulder and calmly asked me,
"Are you ok?"
"No mark, I'm not okay... of course I'm not ok"
He frowned knowing it was a stupid question to ask.
I looked at his expression and regretted what I said, I must have sounded snappy. I turned over to him and sighed
"I'm sorry if that sounded bitchy... I know you're trying to help and I know you have a good heart it's just... it's like my life is falling apart right now..."
He brushed my hair out of my face and smiled again.
"It would be easier for me to help if you could explain to me why your life is ending."
I giggled quietly for a second to his way of trying to lighten up the mood, hey at least it worked. I took in a deep breath then started to explain to him,
"You know my dream to one day become a video game artist?"
"Yeah you told me about it when we first met..."
He frowned as if he knew just was I was about to say.

"I can kiss that dream goodbye" I said sobbing, even more, feeling a dagger stab my chest. I felt like such a failure at that moment I didn't even know how to continue yet I did.

"They declined my application... said I wasn't even experienced enough... they were right, I'm too young to get to my dream. I guess I need to spend more time in Cincinnati waiting tables"

"You're never too young for your dream!" He insisted but I just wasn't having it. I felt that it wasn't real, that he was telling white lies. "It's not the end of the world I'm sure there are so many other companies that will take you in" I shook my head and replied to him, "No, It's just if this company didn't take me in I don't think others will accept me. I've been looking forward to this for so long and now it's gone... I pushed through, ignored all the hardships life gave me and left my family all for this?" He was quiet for a minute like he knew i was right but then he asked, "Can i see your drawings?" I looked at him confused and nodded. I rummaged through my room looking for my art box and fished for my portfolio. I had everything i'd ever drawn inside it. I wiped away my tears and headed for the living room. I handed him the portfolio as i sat down next to him. He started looking through my drawings and his eyes lit up. He was carefully scanning each one, even paying attention to the details. His mouth dropped open. Well I was guessing he liked them? I worked so hard on those drawings... all those years and hard work, right now it seemed for nothing. After looking through all of them he closed the portfolio and put it down on the coffee table in front of us.

He got closer to me and suddenly I was in his arms. He held me tightly. I felt butterflies in my stomach suddenly. I didn't know what it meant but it felt so good being in this embrace with him. I felt him breathe on my hair slowly. He was thinking of something to say... or maybe he was just waiting for me to calm down a little bit. He grabbed me to look up to him.

"(Y/N), you're an amazing artist and they've just lost a talent" He ended that with a goofy little smile and I too started smiling, I even stopped crying finally. It was like the pain was being numbed and I don't know what it was but it was Mark. Second by second he was becoming more irresistible... the more we looked at each other the more I wanted to be around him, the more I wanted my lips to touch his.

I know, it's weird, I'd moved a week ago and I was in such a horrible moment but at that moment he was the only thing keeping me from falling off the edge, he just felt like the answer to something. His eyes were pulling me closer, they were telling me something. Maybe he wanted me too. Just as that thought went through my head our heads and bodies got closer, his hands slowly moved from my shoulder to my waist and I let him. I didn't want him to stop. I wanted to be numb, I didn't care if it wasn't loved or whatever I just needed to do what my body told me to do. It's too sudden, my head warned me but my body said do it! I saw him, he knew i was looking at him that way and the look on his face looked inviting. My heart was racing and my blood was rushing. Just then our lips touched, his were soft and this wasn't my first rodeo. Slow but passionate. I could tell he was shy. One kiss turned into 2 and before we knew it we couldn't let go of eachother.

"(Y/N)! OH.MY.GOD! ...AND WHO...?"

We let go of eachother so suddenly and suddenly all those feelings went away as shock kicked in. I could imagine both our expressions. We both looked at who had just come in through the door. We were so caught up in the moment we didn't hear the door open.

"Daisy?!?!"