Fallen for you

Part XIII

The morning after I packed some food and drinks, left a note for stew and Jen and hit the road.

My first stop was at Richard's.

When I knocked on the door Richard opened, Happy to see me, thrilled even.

"Halo! I am so happy to see you, what are you doing here?" he asked as he gave me a welcoming hug.

"Is Sam here?" I asked, kind of ignoring his question, but I was determined!

"Of course he is, our boy didn't leave the house in forever" he said scratching the back of his head.

"He's upstairs in his room, I'm sure he'll open the door for you" he continued.

"What do you mean? Did he lock himself in the room?" I said confused.

"Not entirely, but he has been very quiet and private" he said searching for the right words to say.

You could definitely tell Richard wasn't used to having to handle with such strong emotions.

I thanked him and made my way upstairs.

"Hey.. Sam? It's Halo" I said as I lightly knocked on the door.

When he didn't answer I decided to open the door myself.

He was sitting on a chair with his chin lying on his arms as he looked out the window at the snow.

The room was trashed, half of the stuff in the room was burnt, he had cracks in the walls and I could almost feel his desperation because it was so strong.

I sat on the floor against the bed facing him and he turned around with the chair so he was facing me.

When our eyes met his turned purple for just a split second, but the color quickly faded away and was replaced by his ocean blue eyes.

His hair was messy and was almost covering his beautiful eyes.

I smile at him and he looks down.

Quite honestly, I didn't know what to do, or what to say.

I tried to search for his gaze, but I couldn't, it was almost as if he was embarrassed to look me in the eye.

"Mind telling me what's on your mind?" I asked with a smile.

There was a pause for a couple of minutes; I wanted to give him some time to figure out if he wanted to answer.

"At first I was embarrassed of losing my abilities, than I was just sad, I felt like I was nothing, like I didn't matter."

He eventually said taking a deep breath.

"Then I remember my one true cause; you, my reason of existing is to make sure you are safe and happy and to guard you, and I was caught up in my troubles so much so that I didn't even think about you, which made me even sadder, I have abandoned you, left you alone and unprotected when I shouldn't have, especially after what happened to you, and now I'm doing that again, talking about myself like it matters." He said, he sounded like he was truly mad at himself and I could relate to him.

"It does" I said

"Matter" I continued after a short pause.

"You shouldn't cancel yourself and your existence because of someone else, its okay to feel sad and desperate.

Believe it or not, I was mad at myself for the exact opposite reason- I was so deep in my feelings that I forgot you also needed a cheer and a shoulder to cry on, and that's why I am here right now, I want to be here for you, and I know you're supposed to be my guardian angel but things are different now, and you need someone to be there for you and I get it."