october 28, 2018
i always get scared of being happy. it is really great to feel that genuine thing that makes you forget those things that probably makes you feel sad, or horrible, or maybe a little frustration. but after all those things that almost feels like fantasy, it will end. well, it always ends. you're gonna be back to zero- into that loneliness and emptiness. the world's unfair. very unfair. when that pure feeling arrives, expect that you are gonna be miserable in a few moments. i really admire those people who are positive or very optimistic on everything they do. they don't feel very anxious about themselves or their life decisions. it is really scary to be happy that sometimes i just don't feel myself. i don't even know myself anymore.
i don't want to wake up and see the ray of sunshine. not anymore.
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song recommendation
drown // bring me the horizon
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Randomwelcome to my shitty dramatic life this is where i write some of my random thoughts and stuff. i'd also add song recommendation! xx (english is not my first language so expect some grammatical errors. lowercase intended.) started writing: eleventh...
