Breathe and love

Moon

You couldn't sleep... again, so you decided to go to the garden to watch the stars and the beautiful moon.

The moon is shining so brightly tonight. You wonder if at this moment someone else is looking at the moon in Seoul like you do.

You could feel a cold breeze playing with your hair and took a deep breath. After a while you decided to go back inside. On your way to your bedroom you could hear a deep snore coming from your parents room. « It's probably dad » you think with a smirk on your face.

Back in your bed you think about how your life would look like in 10 years. You always had those kind of deep thoughts before sleeping. You started imagining a lot of things and with these thoughts you finally fell asleep

The next day you woke up with the sound of your parents cooking breakfast. The curtains were open and the sunbeams stung your eyes.

You always loved to enjoy these small details. It gave you the feeling that a happy day was coming.
« Y/N, it's time to eat! » your mom said. « I'm coming! » you answered.

You got up, washed your face and teeth and got down the stairs to the kitchen. Your mouth started watering as you saw the pancakes on the table.

Your parents gave you a warm smile and told you to sit down. You were so grateful to be loved by your family. « Hopefully, I will always be by your side » you said to your parents and started eating. Your parents looked a bit confused at the sudden statement but also started eating afterwards.

After finishing your breakfast you got ready for work. You worked as a psychologist.
Since you were a child you always wanted to have a job in which you could help people, make them feel better. Your dream came true and you really enjoyed your work.

It has been 2 years since you worked as a psychologist and you met so many people with different stories and pasts. You could help many of them but sadly not all stories had a good ending. Sometimes you heard that a patient committed suicide, you then felt so sad and guilty. You thought that it was because you didn't do your job well. Luckily you parents were always there to cheer you up.

That day you went to your work place a bit early. You sat at your desk and got ready to welcome the first patient. While you were sorting your papers you heard a knock on the door. You looked up.
« Come in » you said.

A young man appeared behind the door. You were a bit surprised because you recognized him. He was a famous idol.The youngest of the boyband BTS: Jungkook.
You still acted professional and told him to sit down with a gentle smile on your face.

You thought that he was just a normal human being who needed to talk and maybe get help from you. You didn't care if he was famous or not.

« So..before we start, I'm Y/N and I will try to listen to you and help you the best I can, hopefully you will feel comfortable talking with me. Also you need to know that everything you say here, will stay here. So you can trust me. » you began.

The man looked a bit shy and introverted
« N-nice to meet you, my name is Jeon Jungkook » he said while avoiding eye contact.

Usually there are two types of patients. Some of them feel like they need to look me in the eye while telling their problems, and other people are a bit shy and prefer to lie on the couch and talk while closing their eyes or look at the ceiling.

As you saw Jungkook avoiding eye contact you told him that he can lie on the couch if that makes him feel more at ease. He softly nodded and got up to walk towards the couch.

After you saw that he was ready, you took your chair and got a bit closer. « Where should I start? » he suddenly asked.
« Start with the first thing that comes to your mind, you will see, during this session things will come naturally » you answered.

«  hmm... you see I'm an idol, I think you didn't recognize me but I'm a member of the boy band BTS. » he started. «  Oh, actually I did recognize you. » you answered. He turned his head to look at you a bit confused and surprised of your statement.
« Why didn't you think I recognized you? » you continued.

« Well..uhm..normally people act a bit excited or surprised when they see me and you acted quite..normal » he responded.

You: « I see, how do you feel about the fact that most people react the way you described? »

He turned his head back to face the ceiling and closed his eyes: « It depends... when I'm in a concert or special event I feel so excited to meet Army's and it makes me happy when I see their eyes sparkle of joy. Army's are truly my whole life, I'm so grateful for each one of them. I can't even describe how much I love them. »

You could see a small smile on his face while telling you about Army's but suddenly the smile disappeared. His lips were pressed against each other as if what he was going to say didn't want to come out.

« But sometimes... you know there are some possessive fans who keep following us around and I had quite a lot of bad experiences. Sometimes they were so bad that I couldn't sleep. I know I chose to be an idol and I should accept the consequences. That's why I just kept living with it for 5 years, but I think I need to talk about it now because it starts to really feel heavy on my shoulders. »

You could see tears falling of his cheeks while his eyes were still closed, it broke your heart...

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Hello guys!
Thank you so much for reading this. I hope you like it! It's my first fiction so I hope it's not that bad, please tell me what you think about it and how I could improve. Also I hope I didn't make a lot of mistakes (english is not my first language)
I will soon publish part 2
Enjoy 💜💜💜