Breathe and love

Lonely

*Jungkook's POV*

I went to see Y/N, we ate together and talked a bit. Sometimes I did weird things or told her jokes to make her laugh she then smiled but I could see it in her eyes... I could see the sadness...her broken heart.

It's been only a month since I met her, I told her a lot about me but I didn't hear anything from her. Which was normal but I still don't like it.

At first I only saw her as my psychologist..a good one, to whom I could tell everything. But after I saw her collapse in front of my eyes and heard that her parents died I felt like... like she was something more than that. It kind of reminded me of my past... a horrible mistake I did and would never want to do again...

I started seeing her as someone... someone special? I still don't know how I feel. It's not love... it's a another feeling that I can't explain to myself. A feeling that tells me to protect her, to make her smile, to not leave her side.

Is it because of my past? Do I see her as a new opportunity to make me feel better? If that's the case then it would be really egoistic but I still won't stop doing it. Because since my mistake.. I just hated myself, I hated the sight of me...

So if helping Y/N could change that, then I won't leave her...

*Your POV*

It's been 7 hours since Jungkook left you. You did go to the commemoration of your parents and came back home. You were now in your bedroom trying to get some rest.

When you arrived to the commemoration you were barely able to look around. All the people who lost the ones they loved were gathered there. They all had a deep wound in their heart.

Some of them came to show their support to you and talk a bit. But it didn't make you feel better at all. You were trying to forget your misery but it all came back.

You hated crying in front of people, it made you feel miserable. But now it's almost impossible to hold it all in. Your parents literally meant the world to you.

A month ago you had such a happy life. « How did all of this happen? Why me? What did I do to deserve this?? Being lonely and sad is that what my future is about??» you thought...

***

You woke up after two hours sleep. You kept crying the whole night.

While you were looking after some medicaments to ease your headache you remembered that today Jinyoung will question that bastard that made that bomb.

"I don't know if I will be able to stay calm if I see him.." you thought.

When thinking about him all of your sadness instantly felt as hatred...

You lay on the couch and started thinking a bit about all that's happening right now. "The man.. he is the one that made the bomb... but actually it's impossible that he was the one that putted it in plane as he was in prison"

"But if it isn't him who did it? Did he tell someone to do it? If yes...why? Why does he hate my dad that much that he wanted to kill him? Did he also try to kidnap me for the same reasons? Or is it maybe someone else behind all of this??"

As you tried figuring things out you only ended up with more questions. "The only way to actually find out what really happened is to wait until Jinyoung question him..."

*Later in the police station*

"Hey Jinyoung!" You said while walking towards the man.