The whole sessions Jungkook confessed about how he feels. He told you about his sleepless nights, the moments he thought of stopping as an idol but still kept going because he was afraid, afraid of how Army's would react but also the other group members.
You knew that the life of an idol wasn't easy but you never imagined that it was this difficult. «Do the other members feel the same way as you do? » you asked.
« They also have it difficult at times. We then come together and start talking about it. Sometimes we end up crying all together but that makes us feel better. We had many good memories with Army's and they're not ready to let go. » he said.
You: « Are you...maybe ready to let it all go? »
« NO! » he answered fast and opened his eyes for the first time this session. He sat and looked at you with his big red eyes that were still full of tears.
« I also want to make even more memories with Army's, after all they make us who we are today, they gave us the wings to fly! That's why I will keep working hard until the last day! »
You looked at him from the corner of your eyes
« Is that why you keep getting angry at yourself and cry if you make a small mistake on the stage and keep working hard until you almost faint backstage? » you couldn't control yourself until you realized that you were talking in an angry tone.
« Y-you saw that? » he said with a soft voice and looked like he felt guilty. « Every Army knows about it Jungkook, they keep sharing it on social media even I got to see it » you answered.
I should keep neutral as an psychologist and not express any emotion but it was so hard to be like that to Jungkook. You felt a kind of connection from the very first time he entered this place.
Is it because he's famous? No, that's impossible moreover he's not the first famous person that came here once a singer named Seungri came to confess about horrible things he did, that was quite a shocking experience.
You snapped out of your thoughts and looked at Jungkook. « I want to give Army's the best I can that's why I feel bad when I make a mistake at first » he suddenly said while looking away like he was in deep thoughts.
«but after that I don't think about it anymore and just promise myself that I will do better next time, I try to stay positive » he continued.
« I don't want to make you feel guilty or anything but I read a lot of tweets from Army's and when you make a small mistake they don't even care about it, but they know that you will feel sad after that and are afraid that you will cry, that's when they start feeling bad. » you said while regretting you did.
« Oh.. » is the only thing that came out of his mouth. After that we stayed silent for 20 seconds but it felt like hours. I keep saying things that a psychologist wouldn't have. Why can't I control myself?! You thought.
Suddenly Jungkook broke the silence: « Thank you » you looked at him confused « for what exactly ? »
« Well you're not the first psychologist I go to, I tried quite a lot of them but everytime they were either fangirls/boys that kept telling me I'm always doing well or either psychologist that stayed so neutral and faked that they didn't know me, it didn't feel natural. » he explained.
« But you.. you're different, it feels so natural talking to you, like we have some kind of connection. » he continued.
« Oh.. » your heart fluttered for a second. So he felt the connection too? You suddenly noticed how handsome he was. Wait.. what am I thinking?! Get a hold of yourself! You thought.
While you were struggling with your thoughts You noticed how Jungkook was smiling your way. « Isn't this session done? » You looked at the clock « Oh uh...Yes indeed »
You both got up and he extended his hand to shake yours. « Thank you for coming, see you next session, I hope » you said while shaking hands. « Sure! » he answered and left. You then sat down waiting for your next patient while having a small smile on your face. It actually did go better than you thought it would've.
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After a long day you're finally back home. You go to take a warm shower. After finishing you lie on your bed and start looking into your social media.
While scrolling you see a picture of BTS popping up. It's quite weird to see the same guy on your phone. But whatever that doesn't make him any different from the other patients. « I still wonder if he's going to come tomorrow tho » you say out loud.
« Who will? » your mom was suddenly standing near the door of your room. When did she even get there? « Oh no one special mom, just a patient »
« Is it a boy? Is he handsome? » she asks. You roll with your eyes. When will she ever stop shipping me with every boy appearing in my life. She always tells me that she wants to see her grandchildren grow and that I need to get married fast.
« I don't know mom and I don't care let's change the topic »
« Okay, alright alright » she said, sighing.
« I came to tell you that your dad and I will go on a trip to Japan because of your dad's work. We will go tonight. I'm sorry for telling you this late but I forgot about it.»
« Oh really?! How long will you stay there?? »
When you were a child you were almost kidnapped once and since then you can't leave their side. You went everywhere with them, that's also why you're still living with them after becoming an adult.
« Well we need to stay at least one month but don't worry we will call you everyday »
« A month?! That's so long... but alright I will wait for you, just please take good care of each other okay? »
« Don't even worry about that » she said while coming your way to give you a hug. « I'm sure you will be perfectly fine without us, you're a grown woman now. »
The same night you waved goodbye to your parents at the airport.
After being back home in your bed you could not sleep, you were afraid of every little noise you heard in the house.
You kept seeing the scene of the scary old man holding your arm to take you inside a big red car when you tried to close your eyes
« How am I going to survive one month without them? » you said while tears were flowing on your cheeks...
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