SCREAM!

Hey

Hey guys , I'm sorry I haven't vnt been updating a lot , between balancing school and a lot of personal issues I haven't had time . I don't know how to say this but for the past few weeks bad things have been happening , I don't want to tell you what they are because it is t my story to tell but they involve different situations involving some friends who I love dearly . Anyway I don't have anyone to turn to so I'm going to use you guys , I hope you don't mind . My depression has been coming back full swing and getting worse every day , he heart physically hurts and feels heavy , I feel empty , alone , numb but I want to cry , I feal disgusted in my self , and at this rate the cutting will probably resume . Their us to be someone I could turn to , he was my stock , my shelter from my own mind , my supporter , my ally in this fight ,he became the family I needed ..recently , however, I can't talk to him , we have drifted and I love him all the same , I'm so alone it hurts , I'm also afraid of my self . I don't men to burden you , I'm not trying to get the sympathy vote , I just needed to talk about this and I don't know who I can turn to . Thanks for being there even though you don't know me , knowing that at least someone cares enough to read this .... Well it might save my life at this rate, so thanks

Lots of love,
         BNIM