Unchangeable\\ Labbie Fanfiction

Chapter XII

Gabbie POV

I see Kristen walking out the door so I tap Liza off me. I jump in next to Liza as Kristen reaches the car. She walks around it, gets in the drivers and puts the keys into the ignition.

K: now, we are going somewhere to eat, any suggestions?

L: chipotle?

G: yeah, sure.....

K: ok, we'll go there.

I look over at Liza as we drive away. She looks at me with sympathy, and I just brush her off. She sticks her hand on my thigh, and I just look out the window. We pull up to chipotle and my stomach starts rolling.

K: what do you want?

L: can I have a small burrito bowl?

G: same.

I start playing with a hair tie on my wrist. I spin it round, I twist it, I just mess with it. It's a nervous habit. Liza notices, and pulls the hair outta my face.

Kristen drives through and pays, and collects our food. She puts it in the front, smart. She's going to make us eat it in front of her so we have to eat it.

I spend the whole trip playing with my hair tie, my stomach rolling and I'm getting increasingly more anxious. We pull up, and I get out first. I'm pretty much shaking as I start walking towards the elevator. Liza stops me, and tells Kristen to keep going. She leans me up against the car and just grabs my hand from beside me and lifts it up so it's nearly at our face height. Our fingers intertwine as she starts talking

L: this *points to hands* means that we go through everything together. That we support each other through everything.  That's just what I'm gonna do.

I stop shaking and smile at her. She smiles back, then goes on tip toes so she can kiss me on the head. She goes back down, and I grab her chin and kiss her. This time she wraps her arm around my waist and moves herself closer. I remove my hand from her chin and wrap my arms round her neck.

I hear someone yell out 'ladies', so I pull away and look behind Liza. It's Kristen, standing at the elevator. I roll my eyes and tap Liza towards her. She turns to look at Kristen and she rolls her eyes too. We both drag ourselves towards her as she waits for us.

We get up to our apartment, and Kristen's locks up the bathroom again as we take a seat at the table. 

K: there's your food, and no ones leaving until theyre done.

Liza reaches under the table and grabs my hand as I take my first bite. Suddenly Liza freezes.

L: guess what turned up! I need to use the bathroom.

K: really? But I'm going to have to stand outside the door.

L: ok, but I need to go now.

K: ok let's go.

They run off and leave me at the table. I look down at the food and my brain starts calculating calories. I try to shut it off with no luck. I start shaking as I mess with my hair tie again. I tap my foot as I take a bite. Or try to, I drop the fork cause I'm shaking so much. I'm trying to pick my fork up when i hear a voice in the back of my head.

Don't do it

You're too fat

You don't need to eat

Why are you so-

L: Babe!

G: yeah?

L: are you ok?

G: yeah I'm fine.

K: so Liza, how did you do what you did?

L: well, my boyfriend used to get them so I had to learn.

G: thank you. Again.

K: alright, chop chop, let's get eating.

I look down, then look straight back up. I feel a hand on my thigh as I start thinking of the worst scenarios.

You're gonna get fat

No one will like you

You will have no friends

Liza will hate you

L: Gabbie!

G: yeah?

L: are you ok?

G: yup.

L: you can do this,

G: ———

L: I believe in you

That's when's I knew she wasn't just talking about the food today. I know I have a problem, I just didn't know other people thought I did too. I can't control anything else, so looking good will have to do.

L: just stop thinking.

G: huh?

L: just don't think, and eat.

K: Did you hear about Demi Lovato(a.n. My queen)?

L: about her getting out of rehab?

G: yeah, and she looks great

K: yeah, she got outta rehab, but she isn't finishing her tour

G: I heard about that, her team is planning something big.

I look down and I've already finished half of it. I just ate half of it, and it's all going to go to my stomach and my thighs and my ar-

L: Gabbie!

G: yep?

L:—-

She just gave me a disapproving look.

G: sorry

K: hey, how is your sister doing Gabbie?

G: Cecilia? She's doing great, she started high school this year (idk it fits)

K: do you have any siblings Liza?

L: yeah, 2 older sisters.

K: I only have a younger brother (idk if she actually does)

L: have you seen Ariana's new music video?

G: oh, it was amazing! Throwbacks were the best.

L: now that you're done, do you want to do something?

G: huh?

I look down, and I'm done. I finished it. No, I couldn't have. I glance at the bathroom door, it's locked. I glance at the guest bedroom door. It was unlocked. If I play my cards right I could get it all out.

L: GABBIE! Earth to Gabbie.

G: yeah?

L: let's go to the movies

G: alright.

I make my way to the door, acting as unsuspicious as I can. Liza walks behind me, clearly suspecting something. I try to dart for it, but she grabs me.

G: please 

L: no

I pull away, but she keeps a firm grip. She ends up sitting me on the lounge.

L: calm.

After 20 minutes I stop fighting against her, but she still holds me down.

L: if you ever need to talk, I'm here. 

She slowly let's go, but I grab her so she doesn't leave.

G: stay

L: I love you

I pull her closer to me, and I kiss her.

L: I will love you forever

G: forever?

L: forever.