Did I Fall in Love with my Bully

Chapter 17

Recap

I sighed why does he care all of a sudden. Is he trying to fool me or something this is all new to me, this is a side of him I've never seen before. A tear streamed down my face thinking of Ray and Nia together and if she's better than me... Ugh it's eating me alive. The truth is I'm just insecure.

"I'm more insecure than ever Princeton, he broke up with me for no reason at all." I buried my head in my hands, I can't believe I'm saying this to him right now.

"Is it because she's prettier than me, I just don't get it." I told him as I started to cry even more

Princeton rubbed my back.

"D-did I make you insecure Rachel." He gulped rubbing the back of his neck

"Yes, I haven't gone swimming in 3 years and I barely wear clothing that exposes my skin," I told him " I'm ashamed of my body." I said

He pulled me into a hug and I cried into his chest. I didn't care if he would do something to me afterwards or use what I just said to his advantage, it just felt good to relieve some of this stress. I can't believe he's being so nice to me right now.

"I'm sorry I did all this to you." He mumbled

We both tensed up.

Recap over

"What?" I shot my head

He was staring at me his mouth was gaped open.

"N-nothing, get out." The expression on his face was the same

"But-(gco)"

"GET OUT." He exclaimed

He grabbed my arm and yanked me off the couch and practically threw me out the house. That I was used to.

I have no idea what just happened. This is going to be awkward. Maybe this was all just some sick cruel game they were playing on me. Maybe Ray actually never cared about me. Maybe I deserve this, it's just too much though.

Princeton's P.O.V

Shit

What's wrong with me?

The next day

I woke up and the first thing that came to my mind was Rachel. Her face looked like I just confused her even more. This is so frustrating this lunatic that follows almost everything I do, Rachel and the fact she told Ray what I do to her. Maybe I don't have to worry about Ray doing anything though, since he's with Nia now. I just added something new by apologizing.

I stepped into the shower as the tiny little pellets of water bounced off my body. I put on my clothes on and went to Starbucks. I pulled up to the school and saw Nia and Ray.

"Hey Princeton." Nia squealed skipping up to me

She's like a five year old trapped in a 17 year olds body.

"Hey." I said bluntly and walked away I wasn't in the mood

I plugged in my head phones and then I got annoyed because Nia came running after me calling my name over and over. Why the FUCK do people all a sudden want to talk to you when you're listening to music. That irks me on the highest level, like headphones are like the do not disturb sign without the words.

A/N: If you feel this way say I. Cause people just don't get that you just tryin block out the world out and they start talkin to you like \0.0/ TF 😒

"What!" I exclaimed agitated causing people to stare

Nia jumped back and her face showed fear and then it reminded of Rachel, gosh I was trying to get about her. I was about to apologize and then Ray came up and just pulled her away. Why the FUCK does Ray always have to be involved in some shit all the damn time. I rubbed my temples and breathed how shakily and I saw her.

The girl I been hurting since we were 14, the girl that I made insecure, the girl that doesn't hold her head up like she should but instead she holds it down, and lastly the girl that is now a whole different person she's not bubbly and gushy like she used to be. It's sad. All this guilt is just know catching up to me after 3 years it was just like SURPRISE MATHAFUCKA, I feel like shit.

We exchanged awkward glances and then she looked away. I don't if I should approach her or just let her be.

It's all just so confusing and I made it that way and I regret everything.

Ray P.O.V

I don't know who Princeton think he is. He already got Rachel he better not touch Nia.

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FIRST THING FIRST I'M THE REALIST lol j/k, but first things first I wanted to give shout outs.

Shout out:

@ MarryMeRocRoyal

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This is just a filler but don't worry some things are going to happen, things you won't expect. Got some things in store but I'm just hypin y'all up, and I need chapters to lead up to the events. I think I've made a lot of improvement on this book, cause when I first started it was sorta shaky. I just thought of a new way to end the book so I'm using that ending instead AHAHAHHAHAHA.