The Rule Of Elites

Chapter 49

Edmund

I was eight years of age when determined to the core I took an oath to never date a girl again. Not until I was in university and the one I would prefer would be an experienced woman who has better judgements when it comes to petty conflicts, unlike the immaturity of the young girl who broke my innocent little heart by breaking up. Reason being I was way too lean for a boy and tall as a twig.

Dealing with my first ever break up was another thing, but the insecurity that she had slapped me with kept me going. Like a fuel I worked tirelessly until there was no niche for anyone to drag me down. With each day I grew more stronger, confident and level headed till I learned to laugh at those naïve dilemmas and emotions.

Breaching the unwritten contract of self vow when I was seventeen, I dated Amanda Kennedy ,an aspiring actress with soaring demands in Hollywood for purely business purpose. It ended even before we realized we actually dated. The paparazzi got what they wanted and the movie we featured her in became a huge hit.

A couple of such platonic relationships later I was done. Though my acting skills improvised a mile with all the practice, I always felt the lack of genuine happiness In my life.

Though I had everything that is basically the dream of millions, a group of friends whose got your back, minus Lee since I love my spine way too much and he kind of depends on other people for survival, the luxury of having a work that I enjoy. There was this pit of something unmentionable emotion that always kept me from feeling entirely contended. That was until she came into the picture.

An ideal picture of the girl i longed for was the one with kindness, who valued the bond of family and had unconditional love for humanity and herself. A simple girl with morals, the typical image of a lady from high society. As lame as it sounds, I know I was a simple boy with goals and aspired an equally simple life despite the field I worked in.

You can say that I was quite surprised when I found myself thinking about the girl who stumbled out of the bed screaming and putting that sarcastic little mouth of hers in the most unladylike way.

Carrying her small frame in my arms after she fainted was another story, it took me one whole night to squeeze the self blame out of my system. She was just so fragile, like the most delicate glass sculpture. when I felt the extreme need to protect after I realized what was going on in the academy which had quite the reputation when it came to students as such, I tried my best and failed like a disaster.

I don't even want to recall the day back. It was too afflictive.

And then I saw her shrug away the previous day as if nothing happened. I saw the burning fire behind those grey storm. Like she wakes up every day to a new life and a new fight. Yes, she was fragile and ethereal. But stronger then anyone I know from inside.

And even after my confession to which she reacted in the most predictable way possible for a girl who was way too unpredictable, I was willing to wait with the knowledge that I was falling deeper by the passing day.

Elaine was like the beautiful aesthetical piece of treasured art and I wanted to be that one good critique who has her all figured out.

"Do you guys usually move around the world for birthday celebrations?" snapping back to present situation I look at the girl who I had been religiously pondering about. When we boarded the lee's private jet in the morning she shuffled to the last seat, and I being the desperate man I was, followed her to the back.

"Not really. But Lee is an exception" she nods pressing herself back to the window and curiously gazed down. She has been doing that for the most part of the journey. We did caught on a much required naps in between. But my mind was too focused on holding me nerves back.