Happy Little Pill (Moey Fanfiction)

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*MEGHANS POV*

That was fucking it. I was done. I'm a Ugly Worthless Piece Of Shit i told myself. I ran into the room Joey was in and grabbed my bag bursting into tears and storming out of the room. I heard him scream my name, i ignored it. ''MEGHAN WHAT HAS SHE DONE TO YOU!!'' i heard his voice scream down the hallway. I ignored it and let him find out himself, seeing as Cat would go back in their anyway. Why would Cat do this..I now had strong feelings for Joey..but what about Joey..What if he actually does love Cat. Ugh fuck everything. Well here i go again.. This is my life, This is why i do this, My mum started this, Now Jimmy made me do this again, Then I made myself do it because of how much of a bitch i was to Joey, Now Cat being jealous as fuck. Wow..Wasn't my life messed up as fuck. I haven't been on the internet for ages, i haven't made a video for ages, What would my fans think? I hope they don't think I'm dead..Possibility the way things are going. Once again i slammed my door open and threw my bag across the hallway running up to my room and locking my door. ''Ugly Worthless Piece Of Shit Go Kill Yourself'' I muttered.  Why cant Meghan ever have a happy ending? Why? Its not always about Cat, She cant always get what she wants, She got all her subscribers from me and Joey. Ugh shes such a bitch.  So here i go again... Slitting my wrists for the billionth time. Ugh Meghan this better be the last time. I walked into the bathroom and sat down on the edge of the bath and burst into tears, I already had 4 scars on my arm.. I rolled up my sleve and dragged my finger on the scars..feeling how real they were..I brought the razor to my arm for the billionth time and sung whispered.... ''My happy little pill..take me away..dry my eyes..bring colour to my skies..my sweet little pill...take my hunger..but within..numb my skin..'' And then i dug it into my skin slitting my arms..Blood squirting everywhere..I cleaned the blood of my arm and the floor once again..I sighed and walked back into my room collapsing onto my bed the warmth of the bed calming me down..I know knew that i loved Joey .. but i didn't know if he loved me back.... I sighed  and covered myself with the covers.. I decided i needed sleep so i closed my eyes.. and whispered ''And i don't want to let this go, i don't want to lose control...'' And then i swear i heard Joeys voice as soon as my eyes closed.. ''I just want to see the stars with you''