Jimon AU one shot

Q.... For quietly hurting

Its been a while since our relationship died down. I mean when others told me that we'd eventually cool out of the honeymoon period I didn't beloved them.

I mean his touch used to set fire to my skin. His voice give me shivers. His kisses make lose my mind. But they all just disappeared.  There are still the good morning's and the pass me the salt. and the mandatory peck when he one of us walks in and walks out a room. But they just all fell dead.

I don't think he loves me any more and I'm scared to ask if he still does because I don't think I can handle it if he doesn't.
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Right now I'm stationed on the couch in front of the door waiting for his return. It was way past midnight and I had to be up early so I could get to class but I just couldn't. I mean I still want to at least see him come in.

And speak of the devil I started hearing racus at the door before I heard keys being dropped and then a few more minutes later he walked in stumbling. He was drunk. AGAIN.

"Si- why are you up? " he slurred almost falling over. So I got up and steadied him.
"You have class sunshine. Go to bed"he tried again in his drunk head my studies where what came first.
"I will,  come on. " I said and helped him into our room took off his shoes and jacket and helped him under the covers.
"Good night angle, I love you " I whispered hoping.... No praying he would tell me he still loved me too.  Unfortunately the only sound I heard was his light snore. So cried my self to sleep. YET AGAIN.
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The next morning I woke up to silent sobs I turned to see jace but his warm body was absent from the bed so I followed the sound of his sobs to the kitchen it was barely 08:00 and he was crying. Jace was CRYING.

"Angle? " I said questioningly.
"No, don't look at me. I don't want you to see me like this" he said harshly wiping his tears from his face.

I stepped forward and pulled his hands way from his face and delicately wipe his fresh tears.
"Why are you crying, baby? " I asked and before i knew it I was in his arms his face nuzzling into my neck.
"Don't leave me" he cried.

Wait. What?  Did he just said don't leave me?  As in ME leave HIM?

"baby why would you think I would leave you? " I asked confused
"Magnus and clary told me about Mia. They said you had a crush on her" he cried and it finally clicked.
"Jace baby they were teasing me too... " I started but suddenly I was ripped from his warm hold.
"So its true? " he asked me looking at me with red and puffy eyes.
"NO!!!! Of course not, its just a joke. Baby I love you I'm never ever leaving you. Why would I?  When your every thing I want" I said trying to convince him.
"You deserve better" he mumbled
"So do you. But we'll have to do with each other " I said jokingly.
"So were not breaking up? " he asked shyly
" not in the foreseeable future" I firmly said. And he held me back.

"Is this why you've been cold towards me, angle? " I asked
"I wanted to make it hurt less for both of us when you finally dump me" he said.
"God baby.... Your just so..... I'm so sorry " I finally end up saying
"Why are you apologising? " he asked honestly seeming to be confused.
"Because I didn't realize sooner and made both of us hurt. " I stated
"Its not you fault" he said
"How about next time some thing like this comes up come talk to me" I said and he nodded.

A few minutes later we both got back to bed and held each other.
"I love you angle" I stated
"I love you too, si-" he mumbled and we fell asleep both content and at last at peace and in a good place.
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Hello Deary's
So this is not long but I'm cramming for tests and didn't have much time while also doing my internship.

But anyways I just wanted to say if you cherish your relationship tell him or her what your feeling and your insecurities. That's the only was a relationship can grow and mature.

Votes and comments are appreciated!

~lovells out