Jimon AU one shot

C... For clean break

I am evil.
I'm sorry but cold simon is hot.
Well all of simon is hot!
Tourchered jace is sad but heart warming
And suicidal thoughts if that is a trigger DO NOT READ!!!
Pls enjoy!  ;) 
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Simon has been a mess for a year now ever since he left him,  ever since he broke up with him over a text he's never been the same.  first was crying in his locked room not eating, not sleeping,  not talking to anyone begging them to leave him alone,  begging them to just let him crumble up and die. and then he became more fanatic he started having suicidal thoughts he tried it once they found him on his bathroom floor with slit wrists and a paper reading
" I wish I met some people a little earlier, some a little later and some not at all"
They rushed him to the hospital and saved his life but after that he just went numb. He couldn't try to kill himself again but he was never the same he became a far Cry from the Simon they new.

The first thing that changed was the way he dressed. he started dressing more like a guy who was going to a funeral always in black his t-shirts with sarcastic comments never seen again glasses were gone replaced with contacts and the immature kid inside was no longer seen
he missed his angel,  he missed jace he was miserable all his friends new but what could they do one day jace disappeared and so did Simon's personality he became a totally different person and although they all tried to contact jace he was no where to be found.
A year from when jace disappeared he came back. he was different not sick not hurt but different he looked miserable,  tourchered even.  he had bags under his eyes he also lost weight and had a few fresh and old scars which weren't there before he left.
In the middle of the night there was a knock on Alec and magnus's door.  Alec opened the door through hooded eyes. And his eyes opened comically wide seeing his brother like that.

Jace looked desperate like a caged animal he's eyes searching everywhere for something
"Where is Simon? " jace asked
"Jace? " alec asked suddenly wide awake
"I need Simon.  Please I need to find Simon" jace begged.
"He's a block away from your old place" Alec replied
"Take me there" jace asked and Alec heard the desperation in his voice
Alec nodded grabbed his coat and headed to Simon's new place when he got there he knocked twice on the door and stepped back a second later the door opened and on the other side was Simon the new Simon the half dead, walking corps kind of simon.
"Alexander,  isn't it a little late for a house call? " he asked with a stone cold expression
That was his new thing. He called them by there full names even clary was Clarissa now. He was cold and distant.
"Simon? " jace called the name was almost a sob
Simon narrowed his eyes and studied him for a moment and then his face went expression less again.
"Its late Alexander and I have class in the morning" Simon explained to Alec and was about to close the door when jace held it open.
"Let me explain" jace begged through his tears Simon still had a cold front not a single tale tell showing.
"Inside now" Simon said and walked back inside.  Jace and Alec followed in
"Alexander,  go home magnus would be woried" simon said and Alec turned to jace and jace nodded so Alec left.
"Bathroom is second door on the right take a bath i'll find you some thing to wear." He said and disappeared into his bed room. Half an hour later jace emerged from the steamy bathroom.
"Si-? " jace called as he looked around the dark living room.
"Yes, Jonathan? " simon asked from the bed room door all the lights in the house were off and jace didn't couldn't see him.
"Can I have...some cloth to change in to? " jace asked slowly
Simon walked over and handed him the shirt and sweat pants he had in his hand
"Thank you" jace whispered only to relies simon was silently staring,  studying him with fascination.
Jace changed to the cloth he was given quickly and sat down. Simon was still looking at him as if he was the weirdest thing on earth.
"Si- I missed you... Pls let me hold  you?" Jace asked despret to touch him
" you need your sleep, Jonathan... You look awful" Simon replied and walked to the bed room jace followed silently.
"Get in the bed" Simon ordered his voice was so called it sent shivers down his spine
"Si- we need to talk... "Jace started
"Do not taste me Jonathan. Get.in.the. bed" simon said in a firm voice jace never seen him use so he got in slightly shaken.
Simon turned around to leave the room and jace called out for him so he turned around
"What? " he asked
"Can you....can you turn the lights on.... I can't sleep in the dark" jace said shyly and after a deep breath simon put the bed side lamp on,  and jace's blood ran cold.
"Simon?!? " jace said in horror
"Go to sleep,  Jonathan "simon replied in a tired voice
"You've been starving your self!  Why? " jace asked tears swelling up his eyes
Simon was paler than any person should be. His cheeks were hallow he had deep eye bags his hair was a mess as if he had been pulling on it. He didn't look like the simon he knew.
"You don't want me to answer that" Simon replied sitting down beside him on the bed and jace sat up to. He put his hand on Simons back but all he could feel was his ribs his heart broke
"He took me" jace said out of the bloom
"Who took you? " Simon asked looking At him with an ounce of worry.
"Valentine... My father he found me and he told me if I didn't go with him he was going to go after clary...  I couldn't let him " jace's voice broke at the end.
Simon couldn't blame him he knew he would've done the same thing if rebecka was threatened.
" he wrote that text simon... It wasn't me... I swear it on the angle it wasn't me" jace explained despretlly.
" how did you get away? " Simon asked swallowing the lump in this thought.
"He was caught at the border.  I was found in the back of a container and sent to a hospital here I sneaked out and came here I had to see you... " jace said sobbing
"Get some sleep Jonathan " simon said weekly trying to keep his cold compositor
" even when he beat me up,  when he Tourchered me night a day,  when he was spitting in my face that to love was to destroy I capte screaming your name. Screaming for you to find me I know its not fair but I've been begging for you to come for me so I could see you one last time before I died.  That was my last wish to see you.... My sun shine my simon... To hold you before i died. " jace confessed through his tears. Simon tears at last won and he cried after almost a year of bottling it up.
He scooped up the broken angle in his bed and held him.
"I'm sorry I didn't come for you jace" he said and he felt jace relax in his arms.
"Didn't be... It was unfair of me to hope" jace whispered back thought his held back sobs.
"I'm sorry. I broke you sunshine." Jace said a moment later once there breathing came down.
" I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough for both of us, angle. I let you down. I let us down" Simon whispered in his hair.
"I... I... love you, Simon"jace whispered barely audible but Simon heard him since he was holding the other boy flush against himself.
"I... Love you too angle... My jace...my Superhero... My captain america" simon whispered back thought teary eyes. And they slowly drifted of to sleep.

After that it took time but jace and simon went back to there usual selves. They went back to the couple who snapped at each other while with there friends,  musing them with there loving banter. Simon referring to the pop culture he was so smitten to and jace smirking foundly. But most of all they became happy again and that made all who surround them happy.
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Told you I'm evil!!!

Hellos Deary's
I'm done with the third chapter I was crule this one,  sorry couldn't help it,  i'm gonna curl up and HIDE (I know its die but I could never kill my self. I love my self too much) under a stone now,  before one of you Jimon shippers hunt me down.

I loved writing this  it was a little hard thought turning our beloved nerd to a cold hearted persona. But it worked out In the end.

Right? Its the  longest chapter yet (1571 word count) 

Comments and likes are appreciated for improvement!

~lovell's out.