To try and tell me you love me is bold because you know I'm not gonna take that so easily. I've told you I can't handle it and you force me to go and go and go and you suffocate me. I told you I can't and you push so hard I don't know where you're taking me. I'm falling down again and I told you I need to go on my own, I told you I need to work on myself but you keep breaking me down as if you think I'm gonna become what you want me to be and all I've become is not yours. I try to be kind and gentle and you push me to where I scream. I want to still care for you by the end of this, but you are gonna make me fall off your map because I'm running for my heart. I don't want to get hurt but I dont want to hurt you so I'm destroying myself.
Even after youre gone, you say you'll want to kiss me. But I will remind you, you will remind yourself. We can't physically love each other. I'm not yours to love and I don't want to hold you back from finding someone who can love you, but you try to say I'm the only one you'll ever love and I refuse to believe that. I'm not here to baby you. You try to make me promise the impossible because you make it impossible. I'm selling my blood for the relationship you refuse to admit is toxic. you can't see in my eyes that you are killing me. Im gonna die like this if you don't learn to let go of poison. My arms are scarred from trying to think I can make it work. Sleeves hiding my secrets from you. My broken skin and promises I've lost the blood and love I once promised you..
Goodbye ㊉✿㊉
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Kinda Depressed
Random⚠ Trigger warning ⚠ I don't know if this is poetry or short story or whatever. All I know is that I haven't been doing well, and when I don't do well I write. Its kind of like my coping mechanism for life is falling apart. Ya' know? Some of these ar...
