I don't know
I don't know what's wrong with me. We don't talk anymore. When I look at her, I fall so sullen. It is not an attention thing. I'm not an attention whore, I swear. I just want her to acknowledge that I'm there. I wish she would at least look me in the eyes. I do I mess everything up? She was so encouraging and ya' know what I did? I threw it in her face and left. it was an accident, really. I just don't know how to explain it... Every time I try to explain, I just end up making it worse...
I'm not asking for forgiveness, not anytime soon. I just want my friend back... I miss texting her anytime and knowing that she will respond.
I don't know she feels towards me anymore. Is she mad? Does she wish I'd just die? Is she sad?does she miss me like I miss her? Is she glad she decided to ignore me? All these questions and all I know is that I miss her with all my heart. It hurts me every time she walks by and ignores me. I'm falling apart and she doesn't even notice. Maybe I look fine when she sees me, but I break down and cry out my soul. I curl into a ball and block out the memories, the sadness, the tears, the hate, the love, the worry, the everything. I beg for death but it never arrives. Why do I hurt so bad? Why do I want to fall apart in your arms? Why does my heart shatter at the sight of you? You stole my heart and ran away. And yet as you run away, I can still feel the cracks, each and every separate one, forming in heart as the distance between us grow....
Will you ever see me the same way again? So far... I don't think so...
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Kinda Depressed
Losowe⚠ Trigger warning ⚠ I don't know if this is poetry or short story or whatever. All I know is that I haven't been doing well, and when I don't do well I write. Its kind of like my coping mechanism for life is falling apart. Ya' know? Some of these ar...
