Reneesmees Story - A Lasting Love

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*by this stage they were back in forks.*

I smuggled further into Jacobs’s side, his arm slung over my shoulder, messing about with a strand of my hair. I was fiddling with the ring that was slid onto my ring finger on my left hand. Jacob had been constantly firing random questions about the wedding to me. "What colours? Traditional black a white, but maybe red decorations or..." he mused over these questions. We were in my grandparent’s house and Alice could clearly hear Jacob making wedding plans. The door slid open and she looked at me and Jake. "I may not see your future, but that sounds horrible you’re so not doing any of that. Anyway, I have brilliant plans for your wedding so far". I zoned out and reached put in my mind for my dad. I hadn’t seen him so much of recent because Jake and the pack seemed to have my attention so much. I really missed him; I wanted to talk to him, to my mum. I was scared and I needed their re-assurance. He must've heard me because my phone buzzed and I was glad to escape the comforts of my bed, but I felt lonely without Jacob, even though I was only away from, I still felt lonely. I looked at him longingly. He caught my eye and I suddenly felt his presence in my mind.

"You okay? I can feel your tension. I don't want you being unhappy about this. If you don't want to marry me, I understand." I lay down and hugged him. "Please don't ever think that." I then spoke aloud, only for Alice’s' benefit. "I'm going out, I'll be back later." I then kissed his forehead and got changed in the bathroom. My father had told me that my parents were on a hunt, and I could tell I'd been resisting my urge for blood for too long. I was fine with human food, but blood, even animal is so much better than food. I was suddenly fantasising about all sorts of animals and I knew I had to reach my parents soon, so I did what I thought was smartest. I shifted. I was lucky that I had enough control to get rid of my clothes first. I reached my parents in breakneck speed and I phased back gladly. I hugged both of then upon meeting them but I tried to keep my distance. I knew they could gladly hunt while I was there, in many senses, my blood didn't bother them and my wolf smell now masks it more but they had to remain in control so they couldn't hurt me. Carlisle was the easiest go with because my blood didn't affect him, which I was grateful for. I stood in the forest, the trees swaying calmly around me. I listened for the sound of any animals and soon found myself savouring the taste of blood oozing out of the open wound on the bears neck. Something changed though. Something foreign moved in the trees, much faster than any animal possibly could. For the first one in my life I felt fear, I felt the true need for my mate, for him to hold me and sooth me. Jacob obviously felt my emotions, they were so strong, but as alpha, he had a duty to his pack. I knew instantly he wouldn't be there to comfort me when I needed him. "SETH, LEAH, ALERT THE PACK, RENESMEE, GET HOME". He commanded. The power of his thought shook the forest. My legs started moving without my mind controlling it. Tears were streaming down my face, not because of this new, murderous vampire, but because Jacob so easily rejected me. I got home and suddenly I was in control of my own body again. I tried to leave the house but I couldn't get by the door. My mum, Alice, rose and my grandmother were the only ones in the house, the males all off fighting. "Don’t let him back in" I screamed and they all lowered there heads on understanding. I went to my bedroom and his belongings were everywhere I looked. I picked up a photo frame of me and him and threw it through the glass wall. I yelled in frustration. I tried to force my anger into his head but he had blocked me off, I couldn't hear anything. I now began picking things up quicker and made a pile in the middle of my floor. "Girls!" I yelled and they were all there. “I have a little game for us today. See who can throw the belongings as far as possible." rose was instantly up for it. My mum just stood frozen, as did Alice.

Rose and I were neck and neck with distance when we saw him return. "Don’t let him in" I begged. They all nodded and made their way to the door to stop him entering. His roar of anger soon followed. I soon realised it wasn’t anger, but pain. He had left for a short time but soon returned with a tent and actually camped out side the house, as near to my window as possible. I kept changing room but he kept finding me. By 3am I was too frustrated to deal with his games. In my pyjamas, I went to the front door, where of course he was waiting. "Don’t you get that when a girl is angry, you leave for a couple hours, maybe get flowers and a personalised, 'im a jackass, sorry' balloon? You’re making things worse." I threw my hands in the air for emphasis. He turned and left and of course, twenty minutes later, he was at my door with flowers and a personalised balloon. I let him in, but as he entered, I exited. I felt him follow me. After 5 minutes of random walking he suddenly spoke for the first time since he got back. I realised he was trying to remain composed, because as soon as he spoke, he couldn't hide his thoughts from me. His pain came in waves, and I instantly felt sorry, I froze. "My wolf has been punishing me since I forced you home. My wolf wanted me to come and fulfil every need your wolf had, but I knew your protection meant more to me. I blocked you out because I knew if I thought about your pain for even a second I would come running back. Please understand, I thought I was doing right." he whispered. "You forced me away; you took away my will Jacob." "I will never do that again, please, please just believe that, if nothing else." I couldn't even fight with the sincerity in his voice. I couldn't fight him anymore. "Please don't leave me again" I whispered the tears welling in my eyes.  He closed the gap between us. "Never."