Reneesmees Story - A Lasting Love

You wanted me dead.

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Chapter... I Dunno.

(Like a month or so later.)

Dear Diary.

Ashley – yeah that tramp i beat up last month – Well, Shes still after Jacob. She DID by me a new jacket, But it was the ugliest thing ive ever saw, it looked like something she would’ve wore. Things Have Changed alot since Last Month. Well, firstly we moved, quite far. We are know living in Northern Ireland. Its so strange. Next week I Start Belfast High School; Yay. -.-

 And Jacob, Wow. He practically Lives attached to my hip. He’s Amazing. Since everything happened, everythings Changed. I Shield from My dad and i wont let Jasper control me. I wont talk to anyone. It hurts me ‘cause i love them, and Im not sure why i over reacted. Like, My dad just worried and I Freaked. Hormones? Those Dreams WERNT coincidental. Meh, Its over and done with, i should Move on.

I Winced at the memory of last month. It was... A rough time. I Turned around and looked at Jake. He was sprawled out over my bed, Lying on his stomach, He had one arm draped over my stomach and the other one dangling of the bed.

I Was bored and thinking about last month and how thing had changed reminded me of Mine and Jacobs relationship and how it changed. At first I Was so pissed that no one told me. But then i came around and understood why they did it. Thinking about it, I Wanted to know about the imprinting. “Jakey...” I Whispered.

*Grunt.*

“Jakey...”

*Louder Grunt.*

*SCREAM*

Jacob was up in seconds standing infront of me getting ready to Phase. I put my arms around his waist and buried my head into his back. He froze.

“Are You Hurt? What Happened? Whyd You Scream?” He said turning around, hugging me.

“You wouldn’t wake up.” I Said. “Im Sorry if i .... startled you.” I Added.

“I Thought you were hurt. Why’d You want me to wake up?”

“I Wanted to talk.”

“OH MY GOD, YOU ARNT BREAKING UP WITH ME?” He yelled.

I Burst out laughing. “No, I Wouldn’t dream of it,” I Smiled. “but i do want to talk about our relationship.”

He relaxed slightly but was still slightly tensed.  “So...” He began.

“I Wanted to know about imprinting. So why’d You imprint on me? And What does it mean?”

“Imprinting... Its.... When you see her... Nothing else matters. Its not gravity holding you to the planet its her.”

“So When You See her... Im guessing you imprint on one person your whole life. Mom and dad Used to tell me stories when I Was younger, about moms human life. You were in it, She said you were her bestfriend and you loved her, She loved you too, i think thats why i reacted badly, I Thought you loved her, and i was having strange dreams, Its all verrry confusing. Did you want to imprint on mom?” I Paused before adding another question. “ Do you still love her?” I Whispered.

“Yes, Ive imprinted on you, and thats it. Trust me i wouldn’t want it any other way. Yes, I Did love you mom. Carlisle has a theory. I Was attracted to you mom because YOU were part of her, the reason i loved you mom was Because of you. Yes, I Love her but in a different way, I love her as a friend.”

“I hurt my mom when I Was born.” I Added sadly. “So...if you were basically jelous of my dad... How’d You react when My was pregnant, You didn’t love me ‘til you saw me which was AFTER i was born.”

He stiffened again. “I Dont want to say.” He said, his fist clenched.

“Jacob, whats so bad you cant tell me? There arnt suppose to be secrets in a relationship.”

He sighed and give in. “ Just don’t react bad, ‘Kay?”

I Stared at him intently, not answering his question, cause if i am pissed then, well i don’t want to break  promise to him.

“So, Yeah I Loved you mom and HATED you dad, i mean i loathed him and by the time they were engaged i knew i was to late, I Couldnt change her mind. When they came back from there honeymoon, i flipped and Kinda went to kill them. When i got there, your mom.... She was so sick.” He whispered. “I Wanted the ‘thing’ gone, i didn’t want bella sick. It was hurting her, cause your strong, but Bella insited we... didn’t get rid of you. Her and Rose were the only one who agreed.”

“You wanted me dead? Wait did you talk about this last month, like while i was asleep?”

“Uhm, we were talking about Bellas human life and then... i think we did.”

“Thats why i ran away.” I Whispered. I Stood up and wobbled a wee bit. Jacob jumped up to help me. “Let go of me!” I Yelled, sobbing. I Thought i’d over reacted, oh how wrong i was. I Heard them talk about it, thats why i thought they didn’t care. I Stumbled through the forest and got to the wee river. I Jumped it and entered the house. Everyone was in the sitting room. I Went up and fell into my moms lap. My sobs grew louder as my mom tried to sooth me, mainly because everyone was up asking what was wrong trying to calm me down.  “Tell Me whats wrong.” My mothers voice begged. “You... All.. of ... you... I.... Me .... Dead. You wanted me dead.” I Whispered. “ No we didn’t baby.” My dad said.

I Jumped up of my moms Knee. “Yes You did! Because Im such a horrible person! I Wasn’t even alive and i was killing people! Thats why you wanted me dead! Cause I Was Killing her! BUT YOU WANTED ME DEAD! YOUR OWN FLESH AND BLOOD.” He couldn’t even deny it.

I Went back to my own house. Even though we moved, it was alot like home. I got there and Jacob was gone. I couldn’t be bothered doing anything but lie and cry.