Third Time's A Charm

Prologue: Third Time's A Charm

Trust. Trust this time just for once and then you will be able to trust again. That's basically what everyone told me.

But then again I resolved not to believe in those words. Sa mahabang panahon naging negative ang pananaw ko sa buhay.

Hindi ako naniwala na ang tao kakayaning maging complacent sa isang bagay kung gugustuhin nila, hindi ako naniwalang everyone deserves a second chance, hindi ako naniwalang madaling magtiwala kahit pa sa mga taong nagpapakita ng kabutihan.

Takot akong magtiwala. Takot akong umasa. Takot akong masaktan.

I hated the fact that people expect me to become an open book in order for them to understand me when in fact I don't want to trust them, I don't need them to understand me.

Because when you give them the assurance that you trust them, that will be the time that you're giving them the upperhand to hurt you. Ayokong mabasa nila yung nararamdaman ko, ayokong makita nila na mahina ako. Ayokong bigyan sila ng sandata para saktan ako.

A guy once told me, 'Why don't you give yourself a chance and take risk? Hindi yung kinakain ka ng pagdududa at pinangungunahan ng takot, hindi yung nagiging slave ka ng pagiging skeptic mo at naaapektuhan yung mga desisyon mo sa buhay'.

He was right though. I was once the biggest skeptic in the world.

Lahat ng takot sa mundo inangkin ko.

Lahat ng pagdududa inako ko.

Lahat ng kahinaan ko inalo ko hanggang kaininin ako nito hanggang sa naging mahina ako.

Because of those fears I aimed for a change.

I gave myself a chance despite the fears I have. I gave myself the upperhand to hurt my own self, my ego and my pride and to be hurt by anyone.

I broke my own principles. I broke my own rules.

In order to free myself from fear I let go of my own beliefs.

I chose to believe in chances.

I chose to believe in serendipity.

I chose to believe in charm.

I chose to believe in change.

I chose to trust again.

I chose to believe in love again.

I convinced myself that we don't get things right for the first or the second time..

Yet there's a greater possibility that for the third chance we give our own selves, even the tiniest possibility can be possible.

They say it's a work of destiny, serendipity and wonder.

But for me I just call it a chance and a charm.

Third Time's a Charm.