Stardew Valley x Reader

Never (Alex)

(Angst) (Trigger Warning) (Male Reader)

A stupid nightmare is what started it. That cold Autumn night when Alex was sleeping, he was tormented with horrible memories. Memories of a man he wished he could just forget about. He couldn't see the man's face, but he knew who it was. He could recognize that voice anywhere.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?!" The voice slurred. "Queer piece of shit..."

He could smell the alcohol, it felt so real.

"A fag like you isn't going to get anywhere in life! You piece of shit, get out of my fucking house!" It bellowed. Alex could swear his ears were ringing when he awoke and he could still smell alcohol when he went to visit Dusty, although that could easily be the saloon right next door. It certainly didn't help his mood.

"Alex!" Said boy turned to the source of the voice, (M/N). Bundled up in a dark colored sweater and (F/C) scarf, his (H/C) hair being blown about by the wind. He was smiling. He was always smiling whenever he saw him, something that made Alex smile too.

But that dream had planted a seed of doubt in his heart and mind. Something that was making him rethink his relationship with (M/N). They weren't dating, not officially anyway, but they could fool anyone with the way they act around each other. However, everything was about to change.

Weeks went by, Alex kept having those dreams. Dreams of his father's abuse and degrading words. These dreams were causing him to distance himself from (M/N). He made their conversations short if not nonexistent. He began secretly throwing away gifts before flat out refusing them. Eventually, he began avoiding (M/N) all together.

These actions were beginning to take a toll on the poor farmer, so much that the entire town noticed. Everyone except for Alex. (M/N) began having a hard time eating, a hard time sleeping. He would get up in the morning, depressed and confused. Barely making it through the day.

He stopped smiling.

Finally he decided he'd had enough. (M/N) needed answers. Was it something he did? Something he said? Why was Alex doing this? He found Alex at the beach that winter afternoon. "Alex?" He called. The boy didn't respond. "Alex please talk to me... Please tell me what's wrong..."

"Nothing. Leave me alone." Alex snapped. (M/N) flinched, the brunet's words striking him hard.

"Please don't say that..." (M/N) choked out. "I just want to know what's going on, you never talk to me anymore. You ignore me, you avoid me, you reject all my gifts. I like you Alex, I really do, I just want to know why you suddenly hate me." His voice wavered, he sounded like he was going to cry.

It hurt Alex, it truly did, but he wasn't going to take any chances. As much as Alex hated his father, his words had twisted his mind. If being gay wasn't going to get him anywhere in life, then he'd stop this relationship before it went any further. He wasn't going to risk it. He turned to the farmer with a glare. "There's nothing to say, you're just a thorn in my side." He turned to face (M/N) and began walking towards him. "I'm not playing around. You're just a pest who won't leave me alone. Can't you see that?" They were inches away from each other now, and Alex's hulking form was very intimidating. "I'm done with you. Get. Lost." He snarled before storming away.

"So that's it?" (M/N)'s broken voice called out, stopping Alex in his tracks. "It's over?" His voice shook like a leaf in an autumn breeze. "What happened to us?"

Alex clenched his fist and looked over his shoulder back to the farmer. "There was never an us." His tone felt like ice, making (M/N)'s blood run cold. His words, a knife to the heart.

As Alex left the beach, (M/N) fell to his knees and began to sob.

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A/N: I'm not homophobic, Alex's dad is just a piece of shit... wanted to make sure I said that.

~Katt~