Behind the Suit, Behind the Smile

Chapter Eight

When Cisco breached us back I ran into the secret lounge that no one else knew about. I locked the door and laid on the couch. I drifted into a day dream. In this day dream I thought about how it would be if I was different. If I wasn't always sad for no reason. If I wasn't drowning. I started crying before I even knew it. I sat up in a fetal position towards the window. I was sobbing my eyes out. Maybe that's why I didn't hear the door unlock. Or maybe I did realize it. Maybe I knew but I didn't run because I wanted someone there with me. Or maybe I needed someone there with me.

Footsteps came up behind me, and arms wrapped around my waste. He put his legs up so that they were on either side of me, and he laid against the arm of the chair, taking me with him. I didn't have to look at the muscular arms that were covered in green to know that it was Oliver. I turned over so that my face was buried in his chest, and I wrapped my arms around his torso, and he wrapped one arm around my back and other his hand combed through my hair. I didn't stop crying.

We laid there together for about twenty minutes before my sobs turned into crying and my crying turned into sniffles and my sniffles turned into light hiccups. When I finally calmed down all the way, I heard him speak in a light and quite voice.

"Barry..." he said.

"Yeah?," I asked back, my quite voice muffled.

"I really love you," he said. "And I mean I really love you. I was too scared to tell you. When you tried to do...ya know... and I lost my mind. For a few seconds I thought I wasn't going to be fast enough to save you. And for a few seconds my heart broke."

When his voice cracked I knew he was crying. This tough man was crumbling in front of me because I tried to kill myself. And this tough man who was crumbling also has a crush on me. Not a crush though. No, it was more than a crush, he loved me. I don't think I've ever been so happy.

      "And I keep thinking, maybe if I had told you that I loved you, and told you I wanted us to be together then maybe you would have realized that I love you and maybe you wouldn't have tried to-"

     I cut him off when I leaned up and kissed the man I love. His rough hands wrapped around my neck and made me the happiest I've ever been. Everything around us melted into background color, we were the only people that existed in that moment.

    Our lips were locked for what felt like a few seconds, but was really a few minutes. When I pulled away, everything came back into focus.

"I love you Barry Allen," he whispered.

"I love you Oliver Queen," I whispered back.

      This was the best day ever. And maybe it really sucked, but in the end it was really amazing.

       I looked into his gorgeous eyes. Hey, look at that. He wasn't crying anymore.

Hello! My birthdays tomorrow ahhhhhh, so happy! So here's an update, I know what you're thinking "OH MY GOD SHE FINALLY PUT ROMANCE IN THIS BOOK!" And yes, yes I did. I'm sorry that the romance plot has been painfully slow, but I'm trying😂😂 thanks for your patience, byyyyyeee