two faced | e.d.

seven .

song for the chapter :
" berlin " by ry x
"i'm a child of sun and the stars i love"
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it's monday afternoon and that can only mean one thing :

i have an AA meeting today .

those meetings are so fucking horrid i swear .

as i pull into my driveway , i get a text from sofia .

sofia :
hey ! you free ?

me :
no :( sorry . brother has soccer practice again.

sofia :
oh. well, wish him good luck!

me :
will do! i'll text you later!

i feel bad for keeping this secret from sofia but i'm still not comfortable enough with her to tell her about my addiction.

i walk into my home and call out for my brother.

"luka!" i get no response.

"luka!" once again, nothing.

i go upstairs and knock on his door a few times, when i don't get a reply, i open the door and let myself in.

the scene before me causes me to freeze in my tracks.

luka is curled up in a ball, crying his eyes out.

"oh my god, luka." i frantically walk over and sit next to him, making sure to hold him into my arms tightly as i stroke his hair.

he always loved when mom would stroke his hair.

the sounds of his distressed sobs continue to fill up the room.

"luka." i gently place my finger under his chin and tilt his head up, forcing him to look at me.

his eyes are red and puffy, his cheeks are swollen, and his nose is runny.

"what happened?"

he doesn't say anything, so i ask again.

"cmon, bro. tell me what's wrong so i can help."

he sniffles and wipes away his tears. his words come out in choked up sobs.

"he humiliated me in front of the whole school."

my eyebrows scrunch up in confusion, but i let him finish talking before i ask any questions.

"he pretended to like me."

luka's eyes become even more watery as he looks away, struggling to finish.

"and when i told him i liked him back, he laughed in my face and pushed me to the floor... in front of the whole school, malia."

luka begins crying hysterically once again as he buries his face in my chest. i hold him close, being sure to not let him go.

so many thoughts were running through my mind at this point. luka basically just came out to me as gay, but i also have never wanted to fight a little kid so badly.

luka does not deserve this at all.

"luka, look at me." my voice is shaky and my eyes begin to gloss over as my heart breaks for my baby brother.

"luka those kids who laughed at you today, they have absolutely no idea how incredible you are." i softly rub his head.

"you are different. you're like a diamond. you're beautiful in your own ways, and just because a group of people don't see that beauty, it does not mean that you are any less valuable than anyone else. in fact, it makes you even more special."

a tear streams down my face and luka wipes it off gently.

"i love you, luka sergio leone."

luka's lips turn upward into a soft smile, "i love you too, malia antonia leone."

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as i drove to my AA meeting, so much shit was on my mind.

luka is gay.

sofia is back in my life again and it feels good on one hand but on the other, i'm terrified of getting close to someone again.

i made out with ethan dolan.

and i don't wanna fucking go to this damn AA meeting.

but that's life right? gotta do what ya gotta do.

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"good afternoon, friends." my AA leader's name was harmony. she was sweet i guess, but really annoying because she was a little too peppy.

as i look around the circle, i see the same faces as normal.

that damn seat from last meeting is still empty, though.

why the fuck is this person's time management skills so shitty?

i wish i could just not go to my AA meetings.

the meeting continues and everyone in the group begins talking about their personal life and all the shit that makes them drink.

there was so much stuff weighing on my chest that a part of me wanted to speak up for once, and rant too.

but i bit my tongue.

it was pointless.

while i was in thought, the doors to the meeting slammed open and i heard a somewhat familiar voice behind me speak:

"sorry i'm late, traffic was a bitch."

i turn around and am brought face to face with none other than ethan dolan.

hey , gorgeous people !
i honestly don't even know why i write these author notes they really have no point . i just like talking to you guys lol :) anyway , i hope you all are having a lovely day !
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