Forever and ever (sequel to the redneck has feelings?)

Just hold me

Daryls pov

im a fuckin idiot! I just get her back and I go ahead and ruin things! Why the hell can I not control what comes out of my mouth when I'm upset! She didn't even come back last night after our fight. After all this I just wanted to hold her and know she was safe in my arms, but I ruined that. I sighed and sat at the end of the bed I fell asleep in last night. I brought my hands up through my hair as I rested my elbows on my knees.

"Ya alright?" I quickly turned my head to see Rick at the doorway.

i just grunted and stared back out the window. I heard his footsteps walk closer to me. He sat down next to me and sighed,

"where's kayla?"

i sighed,"don't know. Kinda got into it last night"

"bout what?" Rick asked.

"her runnin into that herd. I lost it man." I said shaking my head.

"I understand. Daryl I've known ya long enough to know you take responsibility for anything that happens with your family and that you don't really control what comes out of your mouth when your upset." He said.

i just starred at him and then sighed,"I just want to keep them safe. Now the kids that's easy, but her...."

"she's stubborn" Rick chuckled.

"hell yea she is and it's gettin on my nerves" I smirked.

we were both quiet for a minute and I sighed,"look thanks for comin after us...if you didn't I'd be dead and I don't even want to think what he'd do to her"

he was quiet like he was reliving what happened in his mind. I placed a hand on his shoulder,"ya alright?"

he sighed,"the way I killed joe....I don't know what came over me, it was like something came over me and it felt right at the time. What's scaring me though is I don't regret it one bit."

"ya did good, the bastards dead. Hell I wanted to do the same thing." I said.

"I feel like I'm losing myself. I'm not the same person from before" he said.

"you can't be. If any of us were still the same people from before, we'd be dead." I sighed.

"Ya. You've really turned into a good man daryl" he sighed.

"I ain't a good man" I grunted removing my hand from his shoulder.

"yes you are. You've become a valued member to this group. What you've done for kayla and for the kids.." He started to say but I cut him off,

"it's my job"

"no it's not. It started from the moment you met her, she was yours. Just because you slid a ring on her finger and she had your kids didn't mean you had to stay with her, but you did. When she went missing every time you went out there looking for her and brought her back. Because of you that promise I made to her dad has been kept. Not because of me, but because of you." He said seriously.

we were both silent as I just starred out the window,"you've done more for her than you know. You and that boy of yours."

"go talk to her daryl. It's killing you inside." He said getting up and walking to the door.

"hey!" I yelled to him.

he turned to me,"ya?"

"thanks" I muttered.

He nodded,"daryl you're not just my son in law."

i arched an eyebrow and he continued,"you're my brother" and he walked out.

A new feeling fled through my body. His brother? The only brother I ever had was Merle and he wasn't much of one. I sighed and pushed myself off the bed and left the room. I walked down the hall to the kids room. I stopped when I saw kayla asleep between them. I smirked and leaned against the door crossing my arms over my chest. Seconds later Connor started stirring and woke up. His eyes immediately went to mine,

"dad?"

i brought my finger up to my lips to shh him, but seconds after elaina and kayla woke up. Elaina smiled and jumped out of the bed and ran to me,

"daddy!"

i smiled and scooped her up into my arms as she hugged my neck. I kissed her forehead and looked over at the bed to see kayla had sat up and gave me a faint smile. Connor got out of the bed and hugged my legs. I placed a hand on his shoulder and squeezed it,

"ya two go on and get somethin to eat, I gotta talk to yer momma"

i put elaina down as Connor grabbed her hand and they ran downstairs. I closed the door behind them and turned back to her. Her eyes advert to the bed sheets. I sighed and sat on the bed next to her grabbing her hand,

"I'm sorry"

"did you mean it?" She sniffed.

I placed a hand under her chin to raise her eyes to me. A tear had slid down her cheek,

"no. You know better than anyone that I say stupid shit when I'm upset. You just scared the hell outta me"

"I'm sorry daryl" she whispered.

i pulled her into a hug and rested my chin on her head,"it's alright I understand why ya did it. I'd do the same"

I started to pull away when she pulled me back into her. I was about to ask what was wrong when she said,

"please just hold me for a little while and don't let go"

i smiled and wrapped my arms around her holding her tightly and rested my head against hers as I whispered,"wouldn't dream of it"

I closed my eyes and took in everything about her. Her scent, her touch, everything. She was right where I wanted her. In my arms, safe. we sat there for a few Minutes when someone walked in. I opened my eyes and saw Maggie who was smiling at us,

"hey Rick told me to come get y'all. We're about to leave for fort mason."

I nodded and kayla smiled as we followed her out hand in hand. The twins will ride with Rick, Carl, Judith, and daisy and kayla will get onthe back of my bike. I started the bike up as everyone got in their line to leave the old house. I reached a hand out to help her on my bike and once she wrapped her arms around my waist, a smile crept onto my face.i couldn't help it. Everything was back to normal. Well I guess as normal as it can be.