voice | kth

u n t i l i s e e y o u

Your heart skipped a beat when you read his note. 

This was really going to happen.

You jumped up, trying to calm your beating heart as you took a deep breath, opening your door slowly while peaking through.

Taehyung was nowhere in sight, and you only knew that because no one was in the silent hallway. You still had no clue what he looked like and you started to worry that he was maybe kinda old and naturally that scared you.

Your thoughts were cut short when you heard your neighbor's door opening, and your heart was beating rapidly.

One step,

Two steps,

Three steps,

And someone came into your view.

He never looked at you as he casually walked out, and you just stood there, nervously staring at his backside. From what you had seen so far, he was tall, slender but not too thin. You hadn't seen his face yet but from what you were seeing, he looked young. Maybe even around your age.

You remembered the scenario he had mentioned that was now being played out and you smiled as you watched him pretend he was on his way to work.

You also remembered that he had walked as far as he could and now it was your turn to go back inside so he could go back without having to make eye contact with you and feeling uncomfortable. You frowned at the fact that you didn't actually get to see his face at all.

Taehyung waited for the sound of your door to close before he would go back, making sure you were comfortable, so when he heard the closing creaking noise of your door, he turned around to walk back into his apartment.

What he didn't know was that you hadn't closed the door fully, leaving it slightly cracked as you watched him coming back. You couldn't help yourself; you were adamant about knowing what he looked like now.

You stared at him, your heart racing as you finally were able to know what your only friend looked like, and you were shocked at what you saw.

He was.....attractive. Really good looking.

He just looked so kind and gentle, and you smiled. You were now realizing how kind and caring he really was, because he looked about your age, so he must honestly be just as lonely here as you were rather than being some random creep.

Thinking you were inside, he looked at your door and froze when he saw you looking at him, and you froze as well.

Oh no.. He thought

We made eye contact.

You had no thoughts running through your mind as you both stared at one another, his soft brown eyes staring back into yours and you watched as his expression turned softer. He smiled lightly at you, an apologetic look on his face because he had failed you.

Coming back to your senses, you gasped under his gaze before walking back into your apartment in fear, quickly closing your door.

You started to hyperventilate as you slowly retreated into your bedroom. You sat on your bed, clutching at your chest as you closed your eyes. Immediately, images of his soft eyes played back in your mind and you sighed, calming down at the memory. You didn't know why you were freaking out so much over simply making eye contact, but it just made you nervous.

Your life had this way of going by where your day was ruined in different ways daily, causing you to accept the fact that you'll probably never have another good day ever again. With all of your stress and scattered emotions that you constantly tried to bury, you found it impossible to talk to people, especially making eye contact with them. It made you cry, every single time.

So that's what you started to do.

You sat on your bed, resting your head against the wall as you cried to yourself silently. This wasn't an unusual thing for you to do, but you still never quite knew why you would suddenly start crying like you do now. Perhaps it was the overwhelming feeling of being nothing.

Never feeling loved.

And as you continued to cry, you heard shuffling on the other side of the wall before the angelic voice was suddenly there, calming you immediately and slowly drifting you to sleep.

"Like a tiny dust that floats in the air
Like a tiny dust
If the flying snow is me
I could've reached you
A little faster

Snowflakes are falling
And you are getting farther away
I miss you
I miss you
How much more do I have to wait?
How many more days do I have to stay up all nights?
Until I can see you?
Until I can meet you?

Until this cold winter ends
And the spring comes again
And until the flowers bloom again
Please stay there a little longer
Please stay there..."