voice | kth

s h o w m e

You stopped replying to Taehyung after reading his note.

You weren't bothered by what he had answered back with.

You simply just didn't believe that what he said was true.

You couldn't believe him.

You weren't feeling sorry for yourself; your brain just didn't understand how someone could genuinely mean something like that about you.

Maybe the old you would receive compliments, but not the new you. The permanent you.

Yes you felt stuck like this. It was who you had become. You were at least thankful that you were receiving enough sleep to get through your day thanks to Taehyung, and that was why you knew you couldn't push him away. The fact that he devoted time to you specifically every night shocked you. He hardly knew you yet he agreed so quickly and willingly to what you had asked of him.

Just thinking about him caused you to sigh. You didn't know why you were sighing exactly, but something about his physical appearance made you weak.

I would never belong with someone so perfect.

So lively and happy looking.

So kind and genuine.

He deserves so much more than me.

You felt as if you just needed some time to think to yourself, but that wasn't the best idea. You knew yourself too well to know that letting your mind wander would lead you to a dark place. You could never stop yourself after you let your mind get carried away. The feeling of anxiety and fear would haunt you afterwards because you had let yourself wonder if things could possibly get any worse in your life.

But as you sat silently in your apartment, you thought of a ray of sunshine that had started to peek into your blackened existence, and that sunshine was him.

He gave you some sort of feeling of hope; that you maybe wouldn't be alone forever after all.

So you got in bed being that it was so late, and you listened as your head rested against the thin wall to the sound of his wonderfully smooth voice that filled the air. You wanted to just reach out and touch it, but you were blocked. He was so real yet unreal at the very same time.

"...On days where I hate myself for being me, on days where I want to disappear forever
Let's make a door. It's in your heart
Open the door and this place will await
Magic shop

While drinking a glass of hot tea
And looking up at the Milky Way
You’ll be alright, oh, this here is the Magic Shop

So show me, I'll show you
So show me, I'll show you
So show me, I'll show you
Show you.....show you..."

At this point you knew;

Even if it were small,

Taehyung had become a part of your life.

And you couldn't go a night without him.