So my friend found out that her crush liked another girl and she said
"Darn it. Now I'm depressed." Then she smiled
I tried not to cry and put on a fake smile even though you can't be depressed for a thing like that
Depression is deeper
It isn't a feeling but a
Part of you that grows as fast as weeds
One day it's a small bug the next it's a large boulder
Me I suffer
The large boulder
No matter how bad it gets
I beg for it to go away
I try to move this boulder but each time it comes back even stronger and heavier until I can hardly breathe then
It starts all over again
It eats at you until your nothing more than a crumb then it starts the process all over again
I may seem happy
But that's the reason the word fake is a thing
It's called a fake smile
A thing I use daily
I can be energetic but
It's all a lie
Lies
Depression can make you the most two faced person ever
I've been through a lot
But don't feel bad for me
I will tell you when I'm ready
But right now I'm not
My mom wants me to go to a counselor
But what good is that
A person you let all your secrets out to but they can easily tell your parents if it goes to far
They are supposed to keep it, not tell someone
I'm a suit case
A suit case that has been dropped
And all the papers fell out
But no matter how much you try to pick them up and put them back in
They will never be organized
They will be shaken up and not all of them will be picked up
Left alone
In total darkness
Shaken
Alone
Depressed
That is what depression is
It's not fun
It's not cool
It's not a silly little thing like a crush
It a big thing
Like a bully
But worse
I wish I was normal
I do
But I'm not
I'm broken
I'm shaken
I'm Alone
I'm depressed
