How come I can completely fine in the day then something just snaps and I'm sad?
How come no one likes me?
How come I always get insulted.
Why do my friends even like me?
I'm not even worth anything.
How come everyone hates me?
I was completely fine today and now I'm crying myself to sleep.
I told myself I was going to get a good sleep and go to bed tomorrow.
But no.
I'm laying in bed crying.
I have to put on a mask.
Every.
Single.
Day.
I hate it.
I want it to stop.
My friends think I'm so happy but I'm not.
Yeah I'm always smiling.
Doesn't mean I'm happy.
The thing that's on the inside is the most painful one of them all.
The self hatred.
This sounds cheesy but my crush was just telling me how I was important and not to listen to everyone.
But...
I didn't believe any of it.
I don't like being sad in front of people because they will just keep on asking me 'what's wrong?' Until I tell them.
Sorry for ranting...
