Pairing: Myoui Mina x Fem!reader ⚢
A/N:There are multiple endings in this, keep reading the next parts based on your choices~
Originally posted by twicetaff
Before anyone else,-
-Ill be the one to make myself happy.
-Youll be the one I see.
-Youll know how I looked at you like you put the stars in the sky.
When you ultimately realize that you had developed more than just your average crush on Myoui Mina, you were left with two choices. One of which could possibly end with the woman of your dreams becoming yours, or the other, which was much more sensible but undesirable.
This entire time of tribulation had began a few years back, namely when you had met her for the first time. The first time your 9-year-old self had ever experienced the inkling of butterflies in your stomach, the first time you had ever fallen for anyone at all, really.
She had become your rock following the first time anyone had ever persecuted you, she gave you the strength to go on and youd be forever thankful to her for that. You found her quite inspiring, the way she smiled had enraptured you.
But it wasnt until the end of the two following years that you had begun to realize how you felt about her, the real reason why she could make your heart skip a beat and why her laugh became the highlight of your day.
Her laugh was contagious and your lips couldnt help but quirk up at the sight of it, the cause of her laughter became synonymous to the reason for yours. But that same year, by some wicked twist of fate, you began learning that you werent supposed to feel that way towards girls.
You learned that those who did were sinful, or rather, people with familial issues which had driven them away from Gods light. That was when you decided that regardless of the fact that she had lit up your life and set a fire burning within the deepest ends of your heart, you were wrong for feeling this way.
So you decided to distance yourself, for fear of being wronged and persecuted for being the way you were. You had become colder and colder towards her, utterly disregarding your feelings attempts at tugging your heart strings once again. After all was said and done, you had successfully distanced yourself.
Though, your heart and mind would often wander back to her. However, these thoughts were always pushed back by your desire to become hers.
Fast forward quite a bit, and you find yourself with a different set of friends now. You begun to think of her less and less as the years dwindled on, she was but a distant memory. What you once felt for her had been reduced to nothing more than a small pang in your heart whenever your mind occasionally returned to her.
She was happy now, and so were you. You were, werent you? Despite all the praise you had gotten after going through physical changes and a shift in dynamic which had led you to become the pride of your school, you never quite felt like everything had fallen into place.
Something had always felt missing, and you werent sure what it was. Your largest insecurity had always been whether or not youd be able to amount to anything at all, but now that you were, why werent you as happy as you thought youd be?
In the year after that, you had finally made it to about five years after the entire ordeal with Mina. Now, there was much more acceptance for those who had felt differently and had different preference from what was considered normal. There was absolutely no reason for anything to reignite within you, but it did. There she was again, much different from how she was many years ago.
Worry was the first thing you felt, would she ever speak to you again? You knew now that distancing yourself from her was the cowardly thing to do, but there was nothing to do but regret or accept it at this point. Dont get it wrong, you had genuinely liked her as a friend but your own feelings had driven you away.
Oh, do we have the same class? Youre abruptly pulled out of your thoughts by the voice from above where you were currently sitting. Yeah? You were more than a little confused at that type of question, though you never broke your gaze on the book in front of you.
I mean, youre in the right class. Arent you? This portion of the conversation, you say whilst marking your page and finally looking up at the person speaking to you. At once, the pang in your heart returns and your breathing stops. What were the odds of this happening?
Realistically, out of the 4 classes, the chances that youd end up in the same class was about 4/16. Which wasnt exactly slim, though you hadnt ended up in the same class as her for many years. In this moment, you were now hellbent on not showing any signs of shock.
Yeah, I am. You give her a small nod of acknowledgement and return to the task at hand. At once, the image of her current form had become imprinted into your mind. She was slightly different now, though, she was still herself at the core.
Your mind began to reconnect the dots, she was still as beautiful as she had been-no-she was far more beautiful now. Shed matured greatly since the last time you had spoken. Though, many things had remained constant.
She still smiled that wonderful smile she always had, and her laugh was just as melodious as it had been in the past. Was she just unable to smile like a normal person? Stop smiling in a way that left your heart and mind with a longing to be the reason for her laughter, just laugh regularly.
And so, despite your minds immense protests, you reconnected with her. She was just as wonderful as you remembered, still quite the embodiment of light if you do say so yourself. Then ensued the next few months of that school year.
One night, your heart whispered for you to tell her. To confess to her everything you had ever thought about her, to tell her how she had changed you for the better. To tell her how utterly wonderful she could make you feel with just the slightest hint of a smile.
Though, there were many factors to consider. Did she feel the same way you did, and did you fit her preference? Would she even accept you? There was absolutely no way she felt the same, did she?
