Loving Her(TeacherxStudent)(Camren)

Chapter 30: Awkward Times

_______________

~Awkward Times~
_______________

Camila's POV

I sat on my desk, clenching my jaw hard as I stared ahead.

Lauren was still teaching, she walked around the classroom as she spoke about our topic and I couldn't help but feel panicky as I tried to control my breathing.

Only my friends and family know this, but I have anxiety.

Like..... I get them...a lot.

Well, I haven't been getting them lately, but somehow the knowledge that Rose was here...at THIS MOMENT triggered something in me to snap.. So yeah. I'm having a small anxiety attack right now.

I clenched my fists, my feet tapping on the ground impatiently as I breathed hard through my nostrils.

I couldn't let anyone see me like this. No. Never.

I stood up, startling the students sitting beside me as they jumped a little.

Gulping, I walked towards Lauren on shaky legs as I whispered out desperately. "Can I please be excused?" I breathed out.

She raised her eyebrows, but I guess she saw that I was not playing around because she nodded her head, her eyes displaying concern as I whirled around to head straight out the classroom.

I couldn't breath properly and I felt like suffocating, like crying, like...like dying.

"No. Calm Down Mila. Calm down.." I muttered to myself as I entered the bathrooms.

"You will not let her get to you... Rose is nothing but a piece of shit who broke your heart." I said to my reflection on the mirrors.

Soon enough I hear the bathroom doors being opened, indicating that someone has entered, and I quickly straightened my back.

Rose appears, fuck, and she raises her eyebrows before walking towards me.

"Hey? Hey you okay?" She asks, worried as she notices the shit state I was currently in.

I nod my head, though just looking at her walking closer to me triggered me to panic even more and...fuck. I said I wouldn't let anyone see me like this and here I am, letting the last person I'd want to see me like this actually see me like this.

She knew about me having anxiety. Doesn't help the fact that I'm surprised she came here to check up on me.

Gulping, I decided to scowl at her through my hard breathing. "Yeah I'm fine. You can go." I bit out, although I'm pretty sure I just sounded desperate.

Rose frowned. "No.. No You're not. Camila you need to calm down." She walked even closer now, shocking me when she holds my face with her hands. Gently caressing my skin as she whispers. "Calm down... Breath in deeply. Take a breath. Close your eyes. Then exhale." She directs, and as much as I hate listening to her, I know I have to do it because I seriously feel like fainting.

I did as she told, finally feeling a tad bit better after doing it a few times.

I opened my eyes, staring right into crystal blue eyes as they stared into mine.

Her eyes were still the same as before. I think she dyed her hair a little light blonde because I can see strips of it in her naturally dark brown hair.

"Feel better?" She asks softly, still staring at me.

I gulp, nodding as I finally pull away, looking awkwardly at the floor. "Yeah uh. Thanks." My breathing has finally got to a more controlled level and I'm glad. It's never fun having anxiety.