yaoi one shots

used to (matsuhana)

(intentional lowercase and minimal punctuation, this is probably gonna be short but this sad hoe feels like pouring her heart out into this homosexual fan fiction, this is makki's pov, i'll write another lil one for mattsun)

we used to talk more

or, i guess we just had more to talk about.

we texted every minute of every day 

and there was nothing that happened in my life that you weren't aware of.

my life used to be more exciting because i knew no matter what happened, 

i'd get to tell you about it.

i miss how we used to be

we were always smiling, 

laughing,

so infatuated with each other that nothing else mattered.

in those moments, we were untouchable. 

i can't put my finger on when it actually all went wrong

was it the first time we stopped talking? maybe the second?

either way, it became the last

everything stopped.

we don't call each other anymore.

i can't text you about my life,

because you're no longer in it

the conversations we had about my fears of losing you are as dead as what we had

or, what i wanted to have

we never really got that far, huh?

i was your comfort zone

you were mine

i became too attached to the idea of you always being there

and now that you're not

i can't cope

i'm losing faith

in myself

in what i hoped to become

in all the plans we made

and in the fact that whenever i thought about my future, you were always in it

your love for me is burning out

and i'm happy for you 

i just wish mine did the same

i wish that i could pretend to forget everything just like you did

and try to move on just as easily

i know i hurt you

you told me every time

you know it was unintentional

but we both know the intent doesn't make it hurt less

we used to be best friends

used to be happy

used to be forever

but these are all just things we used to be

hi this is really #bad but i'm really #sad 

don't worry i never make things without happy endings so this is just a little depresso moment before they resolve their shit 

lil backstory is makki and mattsun were inseperable besties for ages, constantly talking, always comforting eachother, the usual best friend type shit, they're in love with each other but are absolutely shite at communication and now they're not speaking because of it

because these are so short i'll hopefully have the next one up soon but we all know how unreliable i am lol sorry 

if you're still reading my work i love u thx for not giving up on me xx