Sorry for the late update, I was out and just got back home.
UGH, THIS CHPTER IS SO HENSOEZVWKIHSJWOWIEUHENSKDIDUWKOQQPQJEBDHIDKEHE \(°O°)/
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I couldn't believe what I just heard. Zach is cheating on me? How? Tears came slipping down my cheeks like a goddamn waterfall, I could say nothing. It was just like I forgot how to speak, words just didn't want to come out.
Are you sure?, I cleared my throat trying not to make it obvious that I am crying.
Absolutely, Mitch answered and my pain suddenly became bigger.
I-I can't believe it, I said while crying.
Zoe, don't cry, Mitch conforted me, but words couldn't just explain what I was feeling right now.
I believed him Mitch, I loved him, I continued to cry. He hung up and I felt completely confused, is he giving up on me too? I put my phone next to me and blankly stared at the wall. I wiped off my tears and picked up my laptop to call Crystal. No answer.
I feel so alone, abandoned. Just like my whole childhood. I was just that girl who didn't go out at all, had no friends and frankly, no family to support her.
I just wanted to do something I used to at the age of 14, self harm. It was my only escape from this cruel world, once I even ended up in a hospital. That was my last time to do that horrible thing, I still have a deep scar on my leg, I guess now you know why I almost never wear shorts. I got up and got to my bathroom, grabbing a razor and pressing it on my arm.
Just this one time Zoe, it won't hurt, I said to myself, but couldn't do it. I dropped the razor back just in time, therefore I heard the door open widely, I was in the bathroom and whoever it was, just scared the living shit out of me. It was Mitch. He stared at me like he saw a ghost, I looked down realising that he probbably saw the razor on the shelf behid me.
"Zo", he said quietly and came over to me, grabbing both my hands gently, which made me look up, he was examining them to see if I cut myself.
"What are you doing?", he asked softly looking me in the eyes, I gulped.
"N-nothing", I stuttered, not knowing what to say.
"Don't lie to me Zo", he shook his head, "I know exactly what you were about to do."
"Why are you here?", I hardly managed to ask.
"Because I care about you", he answered. Nobody said that to me, ever. I just felt slight warmth in m heart and I managed to pull a weak smile.
"You care for me?"
"Of course I do Zoe!", he started gesturing things with his arms, "I fell in love with you the moment I saw you. You make my heart race like nobody else on this planet. I like you Zoe, I like you a lot", he spat all of his feelings out at me and all I could do was cup his face with my arms and press my lips to his. He put his arms around my waist and our lips moved in sync. Look at us, in a bathroom, with a razor, making out. I still have a 'boyfriend', do I? No, no I don't. I pulled away with a smile on my face and Mitch smirked and took my arm, leading me to my bed and pushing me on it. He layed on top of me and we continued kissing, with my arm going through his hair and his arm on my cheek. Mitch slowly broke the kiss and began to gently pull my shirt off, I followed his lead and took his shirt off. I was in my (pink) bra...with monkeys on it and he was shirtless. Looks like Mitch didn't mind my (embarassing) bra, he got up and took off his pants and I took off mine. In the matter of seconds we were both under my bed sheet, naked and doing adult things. (if you know what I mean HUEHUEHUEHEUHEUE) (Don't worry, they used protection! We don't want Zoe pregnant, do we?)
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I woke up with Mitch lying next to me. I perfectly knew what we were doing last night, he is good (._.). I grabbed my bra and underwear and groaned loudly on purpose, waking Mitch up.
"Uuugh, what a night", he streched and rubbed his eyes.
"You had fun?", I smirked and raised my eyebrow.
"Oh, yeah. I remember going to a funhouse last night. It was awesome!", he chuckled.
"Shut up, you perv!", I playfully pounched his arm.
"Hey don't blame me for having fun!", he laughed and raised his arms up in surrender, I shook my head and chuckled.
"Come on', I nudged him and got up, "you dress here and I will go to the bathroom."
"You can dress here if you want", he smirked and bught his lip.
"Ew, no!", I screamed and he laughed, "dress up now, I don't want to see your little guy hanging around (OMG WTF)", I said and Mitch errupted into laughter.
"Okay, bossy bossy", he teased and I gave him my signature 'death glare' and went into the bathroom to get dressed.
After dressing up in my usual attire and taking some time to do my make-up, I looked somewhat decent. I peeked around the corner and saw Mitch, fully dressed, sitting on my bed. I smiled and got out of the bathroom, he looked up at me and smiled.
"You look nice", he said and I blushed.
"Thanks."
"Oh, who am I kidding", he stood up, "you look good every day."
"Mitch!", I lightly pushed him away, "you're making me blush!", I giggled. He laughed and pulled me closer to him, my head on his chest. I looked up at him and he leaned and pecked my lips.
~Zach's POV~
I feel horrible. I should've never kissed Amanda and spent the night with her, of course nothing happened..but it just didn't feel right. Kissing Amanda felt so wrong and innapropriate, don't get me wrong, she is a beautiful girl but not the girl I really love. I guess I just got in the wrong moment, that's all. That kiss didn't mean anything, and it never will.
"Are you okay?", Amanda asked getting out of my bathroom.
"No", I answered coldly and she came closer and put her harm on my shoulder, I shook it off.
"What's w-", she asked and I cut her off.
"I want to be alone", I responded and went to the door and opened it.
"Bye Amanda", I said and she walked past me furiously.
"Idiot", I heard Amanda mutter under her breath as she dissapeared around the corner.
I didn't care about her right now, all I currently cared about was Zoe.
I need to talk to her and tell her what happened.
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Did you guys like this SMUT chapter? LOL
I am not sure how many people like sexual activities in general, so give me your opinions on that. Do you want at least one more SMUT before the story ends? Remember, I don't want to go into details because it would be awkward for me, as a writer and for you, as the reader.
I am probbably going to start writing the Bayani fanfic after I finish this book (Myb I will write a sequel to 'Loving or Loved'? Who knows..) I will inform you about it more every chapter. I was thinking that the story should be school themed, and by that I mean that Jordan is a bit younger and goes to high-school? :)
Anyways,
don't forget to comment and vote!
~Sel
