Sum
Songfic AU
Angst
Where Soonyoung want everything to be fine once again but he hurt the one he loved so much
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I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while.
We haven't talk that much since that day. I didn't have the guts to go to his parents house even if his mother called me to visit. They didn't know we broke up yet.
It's a good thing he make time to said yes to my request. We sat here inside the café in an akward silence. No one talking. I was observing him while he was nonchalantly ignoring me.
You've been good, busier than ever.
We small-talk, work and the weather.
Your guard is up and I know why.
I always saw him busy. His car always park on his company's front even if the working hours was done. His co-workers always said that he work too hard that they won't be shocked if their company become the biggest company in 1 year if he continue this pace.
He's tense. Although he was trying not to make it obvious. But he was setting too many walls that you can see it.
Because the last time you saw me is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.
I still remember it. He gave me a boquet of roses that time. Valentines, he made so much effort. I know he notice that I'm too distant that day but he didn't take it too serious.
But I saw it. That night when I say it he was holding his tears. He stood up and smile at me. His smile was beautiful but his eyes held too much pain.
He walked away leaving me. I soon leave too after he did. I leave those roses on the table. Not knowing that he was watching at the nearby. Hiding the dark. When he saw me leave those boquet and didn't even look at it before I go. He couldn't stop anymore.
So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you, saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.
"I'm sorry for that night." That's all I could say. Swallowing all my pride that is left.
I could see him tense more. He swallow then look up from his phone. He look at me directly. His eyes blank but looking deeply, it held pain.
He was screaming, but he won't let it out. He was keeping his emotions but he can't held it in for too long. It hurts, seeing him like this and knowing I'm the cause.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
If I could only turn back time and realize that you mean too much to me earlier. Then we won't be in this scenario.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.
I wish I could make it alright. Make all my wrong to right but I can't. And regret was eating me too much. I need help and I know it's only you who can. But how can I ask for it?
I hurt you but I onky think of myself and healing the wound I inflict on myself. I'm selfish aren't I?
These days I haven't been sleeping,
Staying up, playing back myself leavin'.
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
I can't sleep. Thinking about you, blaming myself and contemplating.
Your birthday passed but I didn't call. I can't. I brought you too many pain but I didn't thought that you need my support.
