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Jihoon wants to be loved, thinking he found it with Soonyoung, he felt wrong when he start to learn things about him that Soonyoung wanted to be kept hidden in the dark forever.
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"You're a coward, Mr. Kwon. You can't even fight for the thing you want. I thought you're not like them. I thought I would experience the love I always see. I thought that maybe, if I trust you...maybe the history won't repeat itself. That I would be able to feel happiness. Well I did! But it was short lived.
You think saying I awfully look like her wouldn't hurt? You think that I'm so strong growing up with that kind of family? You are wrong. But maybe I too is qrong cause I'm making assumptions. Maybe you didn't think that way, maybe you thought I was so fragile that you wouldn't dare to hurt me. Afraid I'll break. But I guess I'm wrong. So Awfully wrong." He said harshly wiping the tears that is falling.
Soonyoung looked at him. Ofcourse I wasn't strong, I never was. I just don't openly state my cowardice nor my pride will allow me to show any weakness. I felt pain too, I felt it that's why I have belt this petty wall around me.
"If I said that, I would be wrong." He continued," Cause I have read enough. You can't love me. You still haven't let her go. You might have let her go in your mind, but in your heart you still haven't. You are still holding on those three words. " looking up to him. He can't held his gaze so he looked away. Afraid that he will fall in those void like eyes again.
"Our definition of I love you is different. I lov eyou is forever. But we can't have that when you still hold unto her. You should have told me, you will just use me to get over her. You should have leaved. I said it didn't I? I can't handle the pain in second time. Making me fell inlove with you second time then yank off the carpet when I thought I have streadily stood up. "
You're so cruel, Mr. Kwon. So awfully cruel that I don't even know why it hurts just to simply saw you hapily interact wuth others. Maybe my love isn't pure, maybe it's just possesion that I want. I'm sorry, Mr. Kwon. I think I have wasted your time enough." Jihoon said preparing to walk away. Soonyoung watched him. Opening his mouth to say something but can't seem yo fin words to make him stop.
He know he would regret it, but he didn't have the courage to stood up and run after him. Cause he know he won't be able to chase him, cause his knees will give up the moment that he stood up..
If he walked out of that door and I haven't done anything tos stop him. I know I would regret it. I know It eould be my biggest regret. I know if I let this chance to go I would be late for the next chance. Which hurt the most, cause I know that next chance won't ever appear again.
Finding strenth. He stood up. Catching up with the smaller male. He held his hand. But after helding it, his body give up. Dragging Jihoon with him down to the floor. He looked at him and said.
"Please...stay." those words are enough to broke the dam of emotions between the two of them. Jihoon couldn't stop the tears that fall as he loon at him wide eyed. Soonyoung smiled warmly at him as tears slowly fall from his eye.
As weird as it look, it only come from one eye. His left one at that.
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Ciaooo~
Some angst cause I have read a heart wrenching echi last night
