Carlee
The nurses have been in here nonstop, trying to get me to calm down. I wasn't and I couldn't. He shouldn't be here. He kicked out my children, they can't even see their new sibling being born. This man is evil. I've apologized, tried to show him a little sympathy and he's done nothing but be an asshole. I'm still trying to figure out how he has more say-so over who's in this room then I do.
He's only a resident so he shouldn't have that much pull. This is all just crazy. I'm ready to have my baby and get out of here. I requested that a security guard stayed in this room and kept him away from me.
"Carlee I need you to calm down." A nurse said.
"Nah, I know he on some slick shit. He just kicked out my fucking family. How does he make that decision?"
"Do you want the baby to go into fetal distress? I need you to relax sweetie."
The heart monitor went off because my heart rate was so high. "You obviously see that I don't want this man in here with me alone but you just keep ignoring what the fuck I have to say."
"Let me talk to her." Eric insisted.
The damn nurse didn't put up a fight with him, she just walked out. My eyes grew as I looked at him then her as she walked out the door.
"Why are you doing this?" I asked.
"Doing what? I just want me and you to share this precious moment alone."
"Did you have to put my kids out?"
"Yeah, especially that oldest one."
"You are so bitter it makes no sense. If you hadn't been acting like a jackass since you found out about this from the beginning, things would've been okay. I just don't understand why you're acting like this."
"Because I actually cared about you!" He yelled.
"But you were cheating too!"
"Okay that's enough." The security guard stood up. "Sir, please separate yourself. Her being angry isn't good for the baby."
"I could've loved you right Carlee, I only cheated because I knew you were still dealing with your ex..well fiancé..I saw the marks that you tried to hide, the bites, all of that. But you kept lying and tried to play me like I was stupid."
Tears just poured down my face. "I've apologized for everything that I've done to you. I tried my hardest to leave Chris alone but I can't! I was with him for 17 years. Once he got clean he was the man that I fell in love with all over again. I should've walked away when I knew that I still wanted Chris and I'm sorry."
"I don't want your apologies man. Fuck you honestly. And I hope you know he's going to do it again. It's just a matter of time."
"You don't know him like I do."
"You don't even know him." Eric laughed. "He was cheating for 7 years and you didn't have a clue. If he wouldn't have told you he'd still be cheating. Wake up Carlee that nigga don't give a fuck about you."
"You know a few months ago, I would've let everything you just said get to me and hurt me and have me hating him again but no. Yes, he fucked up and I'll never forget that. But I love who I love and I'm not letting him go to satisfy you, or anybody else. You need to let this hate go. You don't care about me, you never cared about me. Don't bash Chris when you are just as worse, don't use my mistake to justify your cheating. You manipulated me the whole time we were together, you used my addiction against me, you've done a lot and you're still doing shit. I get it, you're feelings are hurt. I've apologized, but I'm not going to keep on apologizing though, end of story."
