Am I Bad Enough For You

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°Jack°

"Do you still want to forgive him?"

Jalissa asked Vic as we all walked into school. He shook his head 'no' and walked away with Jaime, Mike and Tony. Like Vic, I decided not to forgive Alex either. He's just a heartless asswhole. That kid, Jesse, didn't deserve all those punches that were thrown at him. I thought Alex changed, I guess I was wrong.

"What a dick." Kellin muttered, rolling his eyes at the thought if Alex. We all nodded in agreement and went to our lockers. The only people who was near my locker were Zach and Rian, so we walked together.

"What about you, besides Vic you were on the Alex train." Zach said, getting his books out of his locker as well as me and Rian. "Nope, not anymore." I reassured him, being half honest, and shut my locker We all started walking down the hall to our class, talking about random stuff, when someone bumped into us. Whoever it was fell and I looked down to see who it was. The devil himself.

He didn't have his head up but I could tell it was him by his hair. He wasn't wearing what he usually would be. A hoodie and skinny jeans? Not really Alex's style. But who is Alex anymore? He goes from being a prick, to shy, to not so prick, back to prick and now shy again. What's up with this guy?

"Sorry." he said not looking up at us.He grabbed his books and went to get up before Zach reached for the collar of his shirt and pulled him up. He threw Alex against the locker with a loud thud and he groaned in pain. Alex still wasn't looking up, which was odd, but Zach didn't seem to like it.

"Do you know what you did to that poor kid? You broke his nose and for what? So you could get your anger out? Look at me!" he yelled and grabbed his throat. Alex's hands immediately went to Zach's and clutched at them, his head shooting up against the locker. I gasped at what I saw, as well as Zach and Rian.

Alex's face was covered, and I mean covered, in bruises and gashes. Both of his eyes were busted up, his lip had a deep cut on it and he had purple and green welts littering his jaw line. I know Ronnie didn't do it, he told us that he dropped Alex off at home and he had no bruises on his knuckles from punching. He was also back in like five minutes, which wouldn't be enough to cause this.

"I'm sorry. Please, I promise. Tell the kid I'm sorry. I-I didn't mean it, I was just-just...doesn't matter! I feel a-awful for it. Believe me." Alex said, gasping for air. I saw the tears in his eyes and how much he fought not to let them fall. I was still getting use to him apologizing and stuttering so it was odd. His emotions changed in a day, literally.

Zach saw the look on his face and dropped him, making him fall to the floor. He scrambled away from him, No obstacles because no-one was in the hall, I guess the bell had rung. While he was scooting away he noticed a door, the boys bathroom. He opened it and went in, shutting the door behind him.

Zach was still facing the lockers when I turned back to him. He isn't really violent and he hated to be, and I know he felt bad. Rian walked over and put a hand on his shoulder but Zach pushed it away. He stormed away down the hall and Rian turned back to me, telling me that he had to get to class. When they were out of sight I turned back over to the bathroom door, walking over and stepping in.

"Alex?" I called out but he didn't answer. I heard noises coming from one of the stalls which sounded like gagging. Was he throwing up? I walked over to the stall where I heard the noise and opened it. There was Alex, sitting there puking up his lungs. He hadn't noticed that I came in and I didn't want to scare him. I tapped on his shoulder when he was done and he spun around. He was crying.

"G-get out!" he sobbed and continued on crying. I wasn't going to just leave him there like this. "No, what's wrong?" I asked, my voice flooding concern as I knelt down next to him.

"You don't need to know. Go away!" He yelled and pushed me out of the stall. "Please, tell me?" I asked and leaned against the door, banging on it.

"No!" He yelled, more forcefully this time. I saw what he did to Jesse yesterday, I don't want that to be me. So I left.

·Alex·

I heard him walk out so I was free to sob hysterically. Why I threw up, I don't know. Its not like I meant to. When I came in here I shoved my fingers down my throat and puked. It was just a one time thing. I reminded myself. I just felt like I needed that. I needed to clear my mind and body of all the waste.

I pull myself up off the floor and leaned against the stall door. Was today going to be the day? No, not today. I need to have a date set for it or something. Maybe when the date comes, I won't want to do it and everything will be okay.

My stomach and arms are still throbbing from yesterday. I had nothing to clean them up with and all they're wrapped in is a shirt I ripped up. I've been basically living on the street for two days. But if anyone deserves it it's me. I deserve all the pain, all the tears, living on the street. I deserve it all.

I looked down at my arms and sighed at the fact that there was no blood, nor my stomach. I walked out of the bathroom and went to my first class. Looking at the door I let out a deep breath and opened it. As soon as I walked in, I was greeted by my teacher yelling at me.

"You are 10 minutes late. Detention!" he yelled and I nodded, sitting in my normal seat. I'm usually good in class, as well as my grades. I had to keep them up, it's not like my dad's paying for college. Taking out my notebook and pen I started taking notes. In the back if my mind I wondered about Jack. Why would he help me? Does he really care? No of course not, why would he? Nobody cares about me. During my war in my mind, the bell rings. I get up and grab my books, about to leave the classroom.

"Wait, Mr. Gaskarth." my teacher calls me and I walk over. "Yes?"

"I need you to tutor I student for me. And before you even protest, you have no choice." he tells me, my mouth hangs open and my eyebrows furrow together. I'm about to fight but like he said, I have no choice. "Fine, whatever. Who is it?"

"Jack Barakat."

So I know that there isn't really jalex yet but I just want it to be as realistic as possible lol

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