My Love, My Mate, My Alpha

Chapter 4

I went to the gym locker room, even though I didn't need to change, and stood in the corner. I'd been tense my entire fist class, and had the strong urge to run through the hall when class ended. I was starting to hate myself for my random outburst this morning, I still didn't know where the courage to do that had even come from. The door opened and I froze, I knew it wasn't Dustin, but I couldn't help panicking.

"Cam? Are you in here?" Ryder said quietly. I sighed and took a deep breath, then walked around the corner and over to Ryder, putting my head on his shoulder. He hugged me tightly and kissed my head, I slowly started to relax.

"I'm an idiot." I mumbled, burying my face in his neck. He sighed and rubbed my back.

"No you're not. What happened this morning?" He asked. I sighed and shook my head.

"I honestly don't know, I'm apparently feeling suicidal. I don't know where that came from, he absolutely terrifies me." I said rushed. Ryder made me look at him and smiled at me.

"Don't worry about him, he's not gonna do anything." He said. I almost believed him, but only almost. We walked into the gym and I tried to focus on anything but my anxiety, playing soccer as competitively as possible. Ashton and Ryder both seemed a little worried while we played, but I didn't care, I just wanted my mind to be focused on something that I actually enjoyed. When gym ended I walked with Ashton to my next class, looking over my shoulder every five seconds. I was getting more and more paranoid as the day went on, I spent all of lunch hiding the bathroom even. By the time school was over I was jumping at everything. I ran out to the parking lot and hid behind Dominic and Hannah while they were talking to Elaina and Will.

"Cam are you okay?" Hannah asked. I shook my head and searched the parking lot, not being able to find Dustin's face.

"What's wrong Cameron?" Dominic asked. I took a shaky breath and continued looking around.

"I'm stupidly suicidal apparently." I said quietly. I gasped slightly as I found Dustin, he was walking to his car, glaring at me. I gulped and hid behind Will.

"What do you mean, what happened?" Will asked, putting his arm around me. I was physically shaking and I shook my head again. He grabbed my face and made me look at him, making me jump.

"Cammy, what happened?" He asked sternly. My breath caught in my throat at the nickname. Coming from Elaina was one thing, but from him it meant something completely different.

"I-I uh... I c-called... I.. I called Dustin a prick." I spat out, finding it almost impossible to think straight anymore. Between the fear and uncomfortableness my brain was ready to explode. Elaina sighed and reached to put her hand on my shoulder, but Will moved me away from her, putting his arm around my waist. My body felt heavy and my muscles were tense.

"Will, he's having a panic attack." She said, she was glaring at him.

"You're the one that took him over there this morning! This is your fault." He said angrily. I was starting to hyperventilate and tried to twist away from him, but he tightened his grip and pulled my head onto his shoulder.

"You're fine Cammy, don't worry about it, he can't hurt you." He said, resting his head on mine. I gulped and looked at Elaina desperately as a low, loud, growl came from across the parking lot. I tried to pull away from Will again, but he held me in place.

"William let him go! Can't you see you're making things worse you idiot!" Elaina yelled at him, he glared at her, slightly confused.

"Will it's been less than a year, that's not very long, especially for someone with anxiety. Let go of him." Hannah said firmly. Will's eyes got wide and he immediately let go of me, taking a step back. I turned and ran, the wrong direction, ignoring everyone as they started to yell for me. I felt like I was gonna puke, and possibly pass out, but I just kept running, into the woods behind the school. I made it to a small stream and finally stopped, letting myself catch my breath, and sat down on a rock. I cupped my head in my hands and sighed, trying to get my breathing under control. I started to smell Ryder and I sat up, looking for him.