"Never have I ever..."
Noah abruptly pauses to deliberate how to get me to down another shot after the consecutive 6 I've taken.
He knows what he's doing.
"Never have I ever...slept with somebody in an intimate manner"
He raises his glass to salute me and takes the shot.
Meanwhile, I clear my throat with a dry laugh and bring my bottom lip between my teeth, not knowing how to react.
He shoo's his hand towards me.
"Well, go on! Drink" he laughs but remains to have a confused face as to why I'm not taking the shot.
I shake my head vigorously from side to side.
"I don't have to" I utter. "I haven't slept with anybody".
The words leave my mouth slowly and I'm embarrassed for him to know that.
I'm almost 19 years old and still haven't engaged in any intimate relationships. Can this get any more awkward?
I have this theory that nobody is worthy of that part of me, despite complaining about it to Liam every other day.
My insecurities overwhelmed me every time I even considered it. I was uncomfortable with my appearance, although on some days my confidence was at its peak.
I just couldn't piece together why anybody would even want me in that way. Truth be told, I kind of have the sex appeal of a sparkling trash can.
Saved by the bell. Literally.
An incoming Skype call from Liam and Dev emerged on my phone screen with the little battery percentage I had left.
I rapidly push off the couch walking away from Noah, along with any chance of normality I had left in that discussion.
"Sorry" my words come out softly.
"I have to take this".
I pace myself to walk at a fast rate down the flights of stairs to the base level of the library and finally answer the call.
"Hi!" I wave into the camera, my smile from ear to ear, happy to see my friends faces.
"Vanjie where the fuck have you been? We've been texting you all day" Liam questions.
My guilt clouds my mind as I realise I hadn't checked my phone since Noah and I met.
It was now 9PM.
"Fuck" I mutter under my breath.
"I'm SO sorry. But, you guys aren't going to believe what I'm about to tell you".
Dev interrupts me before I can finish.
"WAIT! Me first. It's important!"
She's hesitant.
"Girl. You're going to freak so be prepared. Okay. Get this"
I nod.
"Get on with it Dev. What is it?"
I urge her to continue. I laugh at how long she's taking to spit it out.
"Noah! He's in Australia shooting and his flight landed like a few hours ago. You have to go find him!"
I proceed to laugh even more at her excitement and her attempts to encourage me to meet somebody I admire.
"Uh. Well. Actually, funny story-"
Noah appears behind me in the cameras frame.
He's inquisitive yet concerned for my wellbeing.
"Is everything okay? I heard yelling. Thought you might be in trouble"
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breathe ; noah centineo
Fanfiction"I'm surprised you don't already know" He rebuts. His voice grows huskier while his head lowers as he crosses his arms over his chest. I raise both of my eyebrows in an attempt to convince him that I don't. "Should I?" I question. My voice heightens...
