Caught in a lie || Jimin

17

I won't hesitate to kill someone who comes anywhere between us...

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Y/N POV:

I can't believe I had lunch with Jimin today... I never thought I'd say this but Jimin really is a sweet, funny, kind and caring person once you get to know him.

It's really really hard to believe that the Jimin I sat with today is the same Jimin that made my life a living hell at school.

I heard a knock on my door.

"Come in," I yelled.

It's my mom.

"Hey sweetie, how are you?" My mom asked giving me a hug.

"I'm fine. You?" I asked.

"I'm good. I missed you so much," She said.

"Same," I answered.

"So, how was your week? Anything new?" She asked.

"No not really," I lied.

After a while my mom and I finished our conversation. She ended up leaving my room. I just sat there thinking about life.

Is it really worth it? Is living really worth it? Is going through all that pain really worth it? Is suffering that much worth it? Is it worth it? What's the point of living anyway. We are going to die. Does it matter?

How can life treat others who are cruel and heartless so nicely yet those who are actually victims suffer. Life is so unfair.

What's the point of being nice and kind then? If I'm just going to suffer, I guess it's useless. Being a bitch is the only way you can survive. Because people will run you over if you're nice.

Which I completely don't understand. This world of full of shit. People absolutely disgust me! Even animals aren't that cruel! Animals have a heart, people on the other hand don't!

People will never change! They're all filthy, gross and heartless. They give absolutely no fucks about others. They treat them like trash!

Why can't people just LOVE instead of HATE? Peace is the solution here. Why is violence even a thing? Maybe if people raise they're kids right, the world would be a better place.

It's a battle against life, you win or you loose.

And honestly I'm tired of fighting. For once I want to be fought for.

I'm tired of everything.

Sometimes all you can do is lie in bed, and hope to fall asleep before you fall apart.

It really hurts, but I guess it's okay I'm used to it anyways.

Sometimes I really wish I was DEAD.

Without knowing, I had tears escaping my eyes. I was crying silently. Little by little I started sobbing loudly. The pain is unbearable. It really is.

I decided to go for a walk so I could clear somethings off my mind. I went outside of my house and to my surprise I saw Jimin talking on the phone.