// Shy // Taekook

*19*

Jungkook quickly pulled away and covered his mouth, his eyes wide as he looked into Taehyungs hypnotizing orbs, regret on his face ... he was sure Taehyung would hate him.

But instead of the disgust he thought would take over his crushes beautiful features, it was more surprise and love.

Love?

yes. definitely love.

Something of the sort, but why? 

Taehyung looked at Jungkook before moving forward and smashing his lips against Jungkooks again, cupping his face with his hands as he deepens the kiss, not wanting to let the feeling and the taste of Jungkook go.

Their lips moved in sync, like two perfect harmonies syncing together to create something beautiful. It wasn't lustful or like that in any way, it was genuine love, all their emotions let out into one sweet kiss.

Finally they pulled away, staring into each other eyes like the world around them didn't exist, it was a beautiful sight, both boys finally expressing emotions in a way that didn't involve words, however their body language was enough to decipher it clearly.

Jungkook was the first to break eye contact, looking elsewhere but into Taehyungs eyes, he had no clue where his confidence came from, however it was just the beginning. 

"I-I should probably go" he whispered standing up from the couch, but Taehyung grabbed his arm. 

"I ... i didn't actually explain" Jungkook nodded, sitting back down on the couch next to Taehyung, he did come over for an explanation after all.

Taehyung sighed, he didn't meet Jungkooks eyes, he looked passed them and near the wall behind Jungkook "So ... as i said, Rose is my ex girlfriend, i loved her so much ... i bought her everything and took her everywhere, i did everything i could for her ... and i thought she loved me back, she showed as much ... but after a while she grew distant from me, she looked at me coldly, only came near me to ask for things and for me to drop her somewhere ... she started hanging out with other boys and even girls ... after a while she dumped me i guess, blocked me from everything ... she discarded me from her life, like a used tissue, anything left to the imagination ... she broke my heart and tore me apart, making me what i am today. I still grip to the childish way i used to be, try to be the innocent and loving boy i was. But now i cant help but be an asshole. I cant help but be afraid of falling in love, afraid that people will only show me fake love, use me then throw me away. Just like she did." 

The memory of the her broke him, he felt things for her ... or the 'her' he thought he knew, until she turned into a backstabbing bitch that ran off with her new girlfriend Jiso.

Taehyung hands clenched and he gritted his teeth, fighting back tears, he stoop up walking to the wall and hitting his already bloody hands hard against it "I CANT FUCKING STAND IT" he sobbed hitting the wall endlessly, Jungkook sprung up running over to Taehyung and grabbing his wrists

"DON'T DO THAT!" Jungkook shouted, forcefully pulling Taehyung into a hug, restricting his movements as best as he could as he tried to calm the older down, rubbing circles onto his back as his breath gently hit the Taehyungs ear, working magic and calming the broken boy down.

"S-she meant the world to me Jungkook, w-why did she use me.." Taehyung sobbed, Jungkooks heart shattered as he looked at Taehyung, his cheeks were stained, he cupped them, gently wiping away the tears as he looked deep into Taehyungs brown orbs.

"Taehyungie" he whispered softly "She didn't and doesn't deserve you, your everything someone like her could only wish to have, everyone loves you Taehyung, they can see through your bad boyish ways, they can see the hurt boy down underneath ... Taehyung you didn't love her ... it was puppy love" Taehyung looked at Jungkook, surprise in his eyes.

"I-it wasnt puppy lo-"

"Tell me how she made you feel, did she make you feel wanted? did she make you feel happy? make you feel like you were the only person in the world that mattered? Did her kisses give you butterflies, could you feel anything? Did her touching you even give you butterflies? there are so many more things that i could say." Taehyung shook his head the whole time.

"Go ahead Taehyung, how did she make you feel"

"She made me feel..." he paused a second "...Small, l-like i wasn't worth anything, now that i look at it, we hardly hugged, kissed ... anything, she would always show me off though, say things like 'look at my rich boyfriend' and everything along those lines" his eyes darkened as anger took hold of him once again, but looking into Jungkooks concerned eyes made him calm.

"see, i told you Taehyung ... that's not what love is" Jungkook smiled sadly as he let go of the hug, standing back away from Taehyung "Lets get you cleaned up, ok?"

Taehyung nodded.

For the rest of the evening, the boys shared laughs and giggles, dancing like kids in their childish ways, trying their hardest to forget the mishaps and remain happy.

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Taekook were meant to be together, the laughs they share, the stares here and there, neither know what to feel for the other, Jungkook plays it off as a simple crush and Taehyung tries to suck in his feelings, disregarding the possibility of love and only thinking of them as trust and lust, even if his mind and body say otherwise.

Neither are dating the other, that information is not confirmed yet, its just like friends with benefits ... and feelings.

Both boys wish they could say the three simple words that would tie it all in a bow, but both are afraid to do so.

Or more specifically.

Both are too SHY to do so.

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Hmmm ...

Hope you guys enjoyed this long chapter!!! 

I love you guys so much, thank you for reading, stay gucci my kings and queens, love you all so much !!!!!!!!! 

~Nikky 💞❤️️

(p.s - yeah, this book had definitely lost the plot, where even is the school project? what even is school anymore? Ill see if i can fit some sort of school chapter in this mess somewhere ... still need to get the presentation out of the way lmao ... baiiii 💞❤️️)