How Could He?

Diary Entry 3:

10-24-18 (Wednesday)
10:00 p.m.
Omg omg omg. I can't believe this just happened. wow. WOW. I just did that. oh my. Okay, okay, let me tell you what just happened. I'm literally shook right now.

So Gregory came over like always.

But something happened that I never saw happening. ever. I can't believe I'm writing this; I don't know how to write this in a good way so I'm just going to come out and say it.

I gave Gregory head.

Yeah, you read that right. I can't believe it either. Now that it's out there, let me tell you the story.

Alright so I saw Gregory pull in, same old same old. I holler for Johny to come downstairs, so he does. Him and Gregory talk for a little while. A couple hours later, they're sitting outside on the front porch vaping so I go out there and sit with them. We were sitting there, and I notice that Gregory is checking me out a little more than usual. I don't think too much of it. Next thing I know, he asks me if I want to take a ride on the ranger up to the woods. I look over at Johny and he sits there unfazed, so I say yes. We walk over into the barn and have small talk. We start riding around some until we pull up into the woods. He drives through and then stops, so I look at him confused. He turns off the ranger. "Why'd you stop it?" I ask him with a somewhat concerned look. He turns his body towards me. "Jayden, I've been thinking about this for a long time, but I've never had the guts to say it." He looks at me. He seems nervous, so I get nervous too. "Gregory you know you can tell me anything" I say. Tons of thoughts run through my head. Gregory says, "I think you're pretty cute, and it'd be nice if maybe we could give us a shot." He studies me for an answer. I don't know what to say. My mind goes blank as I feel my cheeks heating up. "What about Johny? I don't want to ruin y'alls friendship if something happens between us." I tell him. "Don't worry about that right now." He brings his hand up to my face. "He'll be cool with it." He kisses me, and I kiss him back. I've always thought he had a little cuteness to him. He scoots over closer to me and places his hand on the back of my head, sending chills. I then feel his other hand on my thigh. I scoot closer and kiss him with tongue, I want more. He kisses me softly and then pulls away. I open my eyes slowly, and so does he.
He asks me if I want to do something for him. I say yes.

He points down, so I know what he means.

He wraps my hair in his hand as I go to town.

I surprisingly didn't do too bad, I finished him. It took a while though, like 20 minutes. After that he gets himself situated and then he holds me in his arms for like five minutes. We didn't want to be out any longer or Johny would really be suspecting something was up, so he fires up the ranger and we ride back down. By now it's getting kind of late so he hangs with Johny for a couple minutes and then comes in my room and tells me bye with a wink.

I'm looking forward to seeing where this relationship is going, cause I have no idea. I literally want to scream right now, like I did that. And out of all people, he was my first. The one I least expected.