Understand *Completed*

Chapter 21

A/N: Ok I've just noticed that I say I love you a lot!!! ahah lol!! So here's this chapter and you're gonna be surprised!! LOVE YOU GALS/LADS!!!

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Yvette's (POV)

From: Jakey

Ok I understand but what are you doing now? X

To: Jakey

I'm currently packing, I didn't know we were gonna go to Sydney but we are and I have to choose who I'm gonna stay with for two weeks. Jake I can't choose help me!!! -XX

Im actually in a dilemma right now and I'm packing. Who do I choose, I can't stand being away from them?! I'm gonna truly miss all of them and for two weeks I just can't!! I mean I'm gonna be with just one of them but it's not gonna be the same. I'm not gonna wake up to knowing that all the lads are still asleep in their rooms.

From: Jakey

I don't want to choose for you, you just have to think who you want to stay with. Imagine if they break up you have to stay with one of them for the rest of your life. Well there is visits but you just get to stay with one. So two weeks isn't that hard. If you're struggling then pull a name out of a hat. -XXX

To: Jakey

Ok thanks for that imagine! I don't ever want to think about that! Yes I am struggling so I'll leave picking a name out of a hat for later. -XX

I don't want to pick a name out of a hat! That's just wrong to do. I mean pulling a hat won't decide for you. I want to pick Calum but the rest of the boys probably see that coming. Calums' mood when I came back from my day with Luke, probably knows I'm gonna pick someone else. I just don't know what to do!

Let me see the one guy I haven't cuddled with or bonded with is Ashton. Then I have Michael who's day is tomorrow and we haven't really bonded. Next I have Luke who I just got done with today and he's probably gonna want a cuddle today. Finally we have Calum who I've been bonded and cuddled a lot. I don't know who to pick!! Maybe I don't have to particularly be with them the two weeks.

You're probably thinking, what why don't you want to stay with 5SOS? Well they said we are gonna go back to Sydney, that is where most of my relatives live. That is where my Best Friend is, maybe I can stay with my Aunt and we can have a gathering and such? I don't want to ask them really, I feel like they're gonna think I don't want to be around them or something? Nah I won't ask it was just a suggestion.

I'm finally done with my packing and lay on the bed. This is hard! My brain says Michael, my heart says Calum, my other side of my brain says Ashton and my other half of my heart says Luke! That is probably confusing but it's true!! Ok, I came up with a decision, I don't know who I'm sitting next to on the plane tomorrow. So whoever sits next to me on the plane will be the one I'm choosing. This probably sounds stupid but I just don't know who.

I felt a tear come down my face. What if they do break up some day? I won't get to see the rest of them that often if I stay with one. That broke my heart, knowing that some day that will happen, but I know they'll still be brothers/best friends. I am now full on crying and Luke comes in. I gasp and I hide my face in a pillow.

"Yvette why are you crying?" He asked and pulled me on his lap. I shoved my face on his chest and didn't stop.

"Come on tell me, I won't tell the others." He whispered and rubbed my back. I composed myself and spoke.

"I don't know who to stay with! Then a terrible thought crossed my mind and I never want it to happen!" I sniffled and silently let my tears fall.

"We'll be away from you for two weeks, it won't be that much maybe whoever you're staying with can drop you off at the other persons house it's ok Yvette don't cry." Luke said and rubbed my back more.

"I know but I can't stand being away from you lads that long. I've grown attach to all of you and..." I took a long pause and breathed a long breathe.

"And what if you guys break up like, I know you wouldn't be in the same flat anymore. You'll probably live with your parents a little and then go off to marry someone and I'll be left alone. I won't see you more often like I want to and I just don't know." I started to cry more and didn't even think about until I said it.

"Yvette, that won't happen right now. Worry about what's today. Don't think ahead of yourself. When we do break up, we'll be living in the same flat and probably marry someone a couple years after. You'll probably leave us first then you think. You have college and then a career to intend to, you'll be leaving us before we do. We are gonna be here for you all the time. Stop worrying about the future and live right now." Luke told me keeping eye contact the whole time. I sighed and nodded.

"So cuddle?" Luke smiled. I smiled back and we cuddled for the rest of the day just watching tv. Michael came in when we were watching Aladdin on Disney Channel.

"Hey, I want to cuddle too!" He exclaimed. He stood there probably waiting for our answer.

"No, today is my day and they day is still going on, leave!" Luke sassed and Michael groaned.

"Honestly, you have been hanging around Yvette along time because her sass is rubbing off on you." Michael said and crossed his arms.

"Why did you come in here Mikey?" Luke sighed.

"Ashton ordered Chinese and he told me to get you guys." Michael told us. Luke groaned and walked out with me beside him. Michael grabbed my hand and walked beside me too.

"I'm not a child, I don't hold hands." I told them.

"You are our child and you are gonna hold my hand." Michael sassed.

"I am 14!" I whined.

"Doesn't seem like it." Luke smiled and took my hand too. I groaned and we all walked in the kitchen.

"Aww look at that they are holding hands." Ashton cooed. I sighed and sat down next to him and Luke sat next to me on the edge. Michael sat in front of me and Calum was sat in front of Ashton. Ashton passed me a cup of noodles and I thanked him and began eating. God I am hungry, haven't eaten in like what three hours ago? Whatevers, everybody started eating and well I can't stop thinking of what I said earlier. I just can't get it out of my head! I finished my noodles and couldn't stand the knot that is forming in my throat.

"So, um can I be excused?" My voice cracked and I couldn't be more embarrassed. Everyone nodded and I threw the cup and fork away and fast walked to my room. I wasn't even to my room when the water works started. I don't know why I even started crying!!

I jumped in my bed, wrapped myself in my blankets and cried myself to sleep.

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A/N: So there's the chapter and I'm sorry if it was crap or something, I don't feel to well earlier because I wasn't chosen on the Volleyball team and I tried to update this crap and I did, so hope you like it!

I LOVE YOU LATERS!!