love me or leave me

im so sorry

-all of this chapter is in hanna's pov-
1 week later

we're currently at spencer's house for a sleepover and everyone's drunk. apart from me. i miss talking to to emily so much.

usually, i'd drink my sorrows away, but emily is different. it's like she is my drug. i'm addicted to her. not alcohol.

'we should totally video chat emilyyy!' aria laughs as she falls onto spencer's lap

'yesssss! i haven't talked to her in like...' mona stops and laughs for a moment.

'since her and ms sober pants got into that fight!' she whispers, well really loudly whispers.

i know they're all drunk and probably don't mean it.. but it hurts.

'okay i'll call her rightttt, now!' spencer taps the keypad to ring emily.

i doubt she'll even answer, it's 2am, which means it's 1am for her.

authors note
>sorry if i got that wrong i don't really know american timezones aha xx

but i was wrong.

'hello?' the beautiful face rubs her eyes after she answers the call.

the girls are all sitting on the floor with the laptop in front of them, but i'm sitting on the sofa, so that you can just about see my in the camera, on my phone acting like i'm not paying attention.

i feel horrible about what i didn't to emily but i'm just following what mona said to do.

'hey em!' alison shouts putting her head up close to the screen.

'ahhaha hi ali' the beautiful soul laughs faintly as she realises that they've had a few drinks.

'is anyone there sober?' emily questions the 4 girls. i don't think she notices me in the background.

spencer begins her never ending speech 'yeah.. hanna. but oh my god emily she's been a complete mess ever since you two got in a fight! she's not even drinking alcohol! because you're her addiction or something weird like that! she loves you so much and she won't shut up about you. it's sooooo annoying. you know what? you should talk to her. wait i'll put her on right now!'

'no honestly spencer please don-' emily pleads as mona grabs the laptop and puts it on my lap.

'you're girlfriend.. well i think she's your girlfriend.. i don't know.. emily wants to speak to you' alison says. as much as i'm pissed of, and i'm really pissed of right now, drunk alison is so cute.

emily and i just sit and stare at eachother through the screens. it's the first time we've seen eachother since the fight.

'we will go into the kitchen now bye bye' aria grabs mona and alison's hands and carries spencer on her back.

they're too drunk. i'm not excited for their hungover. i'll have to mother them all in the morning.

authors note:
okay guys so parents are like really hard to fit into fanfics so let's just forget they exist for now then show up out of the blue sometimes xo

once the girls leave, there's a short silence between me and emily. but it didn't feel short, it felt like hours.. years.. centuries.. forever.

'emily..' i let out a short whisper to break the silence.

she was looking down but when i said her name her eyes lit up and she rose her face to me.

'yes, hanna?'

my stomach flickered at the sound of her just saying my name. i hadn't heard it in a week. well i hadn't heard Emily say my name in a week.

'i'm so, so, so, so, so, so, sorry' i let out what i'd been holding in what felt like forever.

'am i really just an experiment to you?' she questions me.

'no. never. you're my world emily catherine fields. and i know that you know that. i'm certain about you. in fact, i told my mom about you..'

i see a shocked wipe smear across emily's face. i know she wasn't expecting it. but i didn't expect to tell my mum either.

'how did she react?'

'well,' i begin my story 'me and my mom were in the kitchen, it was 2 days since our fight. she was wondering why i was so upset. i told her all about us. from our first kiss to our last. she was mad. but not that i was bisexual.. because i didn't tell her earlier, and that i broke your heart..' i stop speaking and wait for emily to respond

'hanna you didn't break my heart baby, i mean, hanna you didn't break my heart, you hurt me really bad. but i still love you. i'm glad you told your mom, thank you'

'you called me baby' i tell her with a smile.

she looks slightly embarrassed and begins to blush.

'because you are my baby' she giggle and pulls a strand of hair behind her ear. she's so sexy whenever she does that.

'oh, so does that make you my daddy?' i joke. well, we both know it's not a joke.

'hanna olivia marin!' emily lets out the most adorable laugh i think i've ever heard

when she laughs i hear angels.

'well it's about time you two have fucking made up! it's so annoying having to leave the room whenever we want to video chat emily!' mona whines.

'um.. you're welcome? i guess' i squint my eyes in confusion.

we all sit there in an awkward silence for a minute.

'well it's really late baby you should go to bed' my beautiful girlfriend tells me.

'i love you so much. goodnight to the love of my life'. i blow her a kiss and hang up.

end of call

'okay guys im tiredddddd' alison whines

'me toooooo' mona adds

'me threeeee spencer moans

'no spencey please don't be tired. i want sex!!!!' aria is so funny drunk.

'ew tmi!' alison and i say in unison

'stop talking!' aria says to all of us to stop our giggling.

the two love birds run up to spencer's bedroom laughing their heads off as me, alison and mona head to bed on the couch.

'goodnight mona' alison says as she doses off

'goodnight beautiful' mona says

did mona just call alison beautiful? they're best friends.. but this.. this time was different. mona is going out with mike. they have the best relationship.

'goodnight baby' alison responds

in all fairness.. they are drunk..

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hey i hope you enjoyed this chapter, im going to do shorter chapters but update more often :)

whoop also somethings happening between mona and alison but idk if i'll make them a couple because mike+mona are so cute :,)