Why Can't I Feel This Way

Frustrating.

-Rachel-

"So he actually went to your house? That's why you didn't call me" Quinn said, loudly I might add.

"Shhh. People could hear you" I said looking around.

"Oh come on what's the worst that could happen" she said waving her hand at me.

"Um I don't know my parents disown me and I get bullied nonstop" I said widening eyes.

"Whatever" she said walking away from me.

"Like you would know though your not like me" I said walking up to her.

"Well maybe I am. I haven't been able to get this guy out of my head" she said stopping in her tracks and looking at me.

"Aww Q" I said squealing.

"Well at least your parents don't mind whether you like a girl or guy"

"Yeah I guess I'm pretty blessed"

"Ugh" I groaned and walked away.

"Bye" she screamed. I waved bye and walked in my classroom. This is the class where I sit next to Finn, it was the only class that sat like that cause the teacher doesn't care. Many parents have tried to get him fired, including mine, but the school board just doesn't see why he should be fired.

I sat next to Finn smiling widely trying to hide my blush. He didn't even acknowledge my presence. Instead he slip a note in my hand, I laughed but then opened it.

Hi-Finn

I giggle. That's all he wanted to say. Next to it he attempted to draw a heart but it didn't work out. He's so cute.

That's all you wanted say?-Rachel

I slipped the paper back to him without anyone seeing. I think I need some therapy, because if this keeps going on I'm gonna be way more paranoid than I am now. I saw him look away with a thinking face on, then he started writing.

Well no, yesterday was fun. Until we almost got caught-Finn

I smiled remembering yesterday.

Yeah-

I didn't know what else to say. Should I be forward saying he's a good kisser, or shy keeping it subtle like we should do that more often. Ugh I'm horrible at flirting.

Yeah, we should do that more often-Rachel.

If that doesn't work than I don't know what to do. I saw him gape at the note in the corner in my eye. I smirked, perfect.

"What are you two doing this time" our teacher said tiredly.

"N-nothing" I gulped. Oh god he's gonna know, then tell all his teacher friends and soon everyone's gonna know.

"Gimme that" he said taking the note from Finns hand. He froze not able to move, he has more to lose he's all popular I just have a couple friends.

"Oh. Um I..can I see you two after class" he stuttered.

"Yes sir" I choked out. Finn nodded eagerly. We're so busted. Finns glanced at me with wide eyes. I nodded looking back at the board. Good thing everyone was working on their papers and not listening.

Once everyone left we both got up from our seats cautiously walking up to the table.

"You wanted to see us" I asked worried.

"Um yeah" he said getting up and closing the door.

Once it was closed he jumped in excitement.

"Finally someone in this school who isn't afraid of coming out" he said happily.

"Wait what" Finn asked confused.

"We aren't-

"Sure you aren't. You don't know how you guys look at each other" he said crossing his arms.

"What's your name again" I asked.

"That sounded a little rude sorry"

"Oh no it's ok. It's Mr. Shue" he said tapping name thingy on his desk. I nodded.

"But I was wondering, you guys ever sing" he asked.

"Uh yeah. How'd you know" I asked. Is he like some sort of mind reader or one of those people.

"I was working late and I heard you guys in the auditorium. I waited the next day for you guys but you never showed"

"Oh that's because-

Finn nudged me, I glared at him. "We just stopped doing it. I'm not even that good but she's amazing"

"What are you talking about he is so good probably the best guy I've heard in a while" I said half glaring at Finn and smiling at Mr. Shue.

"Your both great. I would really love if you would help out with this club I've been trying to start" he said handing us both a flyer.

"Glee club?" I questioned.

"Yeah"

"Now um why don't you guys think about it and I'll talk to you later" he said opening the door for the next class.

We both nodded and walked out. Next thing I knew Finn was throwing the flyer away.

"What the heck" I said taking it out and fixing it.

"I can't join that, it's for losers. I would get teased for that" he said putting his hands through his hair.

"Well than you can call me a loser because I'm planning on joining" I said turning around and walking away.

"But Rachel-

"No. Ok look you have a fantastic voice and if you think that being in that club would bring down your status than you can forget about me because that's even worse" I said walking away. This whole thing was just so frustrating.