My 23 years old self begin to wake after a long refreshing sleep. "Was I just graduated yesterday?" that's what pops up in my mind. I can't believe I actually went through college. from what I read, they say high school is the hardest stage of the academic life, but believe me. College is worst, even college makes me think that maybe the only moments that I could cherish in my life are the moments that happened in high school. but it's over now, everything is over and what I have to think about is how should I continue my life.
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It's been a month since I graduated, my mom starting to yell and making a fuss at home because she just couldn't stand me being unemployed. I don't know what should I do? I tried to send my resumé to some companies but they didn't even write me back, what is it that I'm lack of? I graduated from a reputable university, my GPA isn't that bad, I did student exchange abroad for a semester. Somehow, that's when I decided to enrolled for a master degree, and I got in.
I, who don't really like the academic system. I, who don't really like study, decided to take a master degree just to avoid the fact that I'm not good enough to even receive a call back from a company to do an interview. I just don't wanna sound like a loser, but I am. Maybe in this period of time I'll find my self and get my shit together, maybe. this time I study the subjects that I want, not like the last time. my mom was and probably still upset and underestimate my choice of study, but I don't care about it anymore. I have enough.
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Tomorow is my first day of school. I'm kinda nervous but I realize, I don't have anything to loose, so why bother?
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This is the day when I maybe have a little regret about taking master degree. I was taking an elevator to go to my new class but suddenly someone seems about to coming too and I hold the door.
" Thank--- Sara? Is that you?" said the guy
" Tae?"
