It's my final semester, everything seems to be so fast forward.
I don't even know where to start, the thesis seems so complicated and all my money is nowhere to be seen. I don't know what to do.
I can't reach my friends because it will cost me something that I don't have anymore.
What can I do in this situation? I can't rely on my family anymore. I really am a professional confused last semester student. But at least I still have some Korean classes left before I really have nothing to do but being miserable. I know, I should really start looking for a job. and I did.
As the class finally over, I barely saw anyone I know and that's what I always wanted. Btw, my Korean course and my campus are not very far from each other, and it's located in the same area, so it is quite a common thing if I suddenly bump into someone I know from school (you know that's not what I wanted tho).
***
I walk to the cafeteria and buy mineral water and some snacks, but suddenly I hear some familiar voice. "I know you'd be here!" as I turn my head and trying to see a man from a distance, Tae is there, smiling and pointing his finger at me "Where were you all these time? you've been avoiding me, you've been avoiding us!" he said and he seems to be with some of my classmates. Oh my god, what should I pretend to say so that I don't look like I actually avoiding them all?.
"Of course not! I've been here and there. Oh my god! how are you guys? long time no see" as I greet all of them and burying my struggles inside so it wouldn't be seen by everyone I talk to, Tae suddenly says that he has something to talk to me and we leave the rest of our classmate and go to the nearest cafe.
***
"First, I want to ask, WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?" Tae says stirring his hot chocolate with his pouty lips.
"I told you before! and besides, I'm busy with my Korean class"
"No, you're not. I know you only attend like what? twice a week". I know, however, I can't win this guy.
"Okay then, Kim Taehyung. What do you want to know? Where have I been? Well, many places". I can't even look at him, is it too obvious that I'm hiding something? yes, who am I trying to fool anyway,
"Okay Ms. Traveler, and why didn't I hear anything about your journey? did you intentionally do that or did you forget you have the best kind of friend aka ME?"
"You know I don't use social media as my diary, Tae" I reply as I giggle a bit. I don't know maybe he knows that I hide something. my confusedness, this feeling of unworthy of anything, a failure, I want to stop and quit, but how?
in the middle of my life contemplating zone out, Tae suddenly reaches my phone.
"Why don't you have my number?? omg Sara, after all this time? after everything, we've been through? Here, now you have my number as your emergency contact, just dial the number 1 and I'll always be there" says Tae changing his face real quick from the pouty one to this smiley guy.
"Hahaha thank you, Tae" at that exact time where I look into my phone, an email notification just popped up and that's when my CV got accepted and ready to be interviewed tomorrow as a copywriter.
