From The Dining Table [H.S]

Chapter 43:

The next few weeks went by really fast. It was just one thing after another with Dunkirk. From table reads, to running scenes in front of Christopher Nolan to being trained in the water, to traveling from country to country.

I thought Nikki would be the one who would be really busy, but it's me. Actually, I don't know if she's really busy or not. The past two weeks I've talked to her about eight times and only through text.

She says her tour starts next week and I'm excited for her. I really wish I could see the first show but I'm filming that day. She told me she understands.

I've gotten a lot of attention from the cast and crew asking me about well me. Everyone wants to get to know me and be my friend. It was like every school kid's dream.

My days were non stop busy. If I wasn't in a scene, I was with an acting coach (which they hired for me since I'm not an actor to help me with harnessing emotions and articulating my speech).

Even though I had so much to do, my mind didn't stop thinking of Nikki. I always wondered what she was doing or who she was with. I wanted to see her so bad. I wanted to fly to wherever she was and kiss her and hug her and tell her I loved her.

But I know I can't.

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About one month through filming, Nikki and I were talking and she told me she was going to come and visit me. Which was a good surprise for me.

I've been missing her like awful. At night I dreamed about her and during the day I daydreamed about her. I missed her so much and all I could think was how much I never want to be without her.

She is my everything and being without her for even a month kills me. I hate the thought of not texting her and I hate not being able to wake up to her beautiful face in the morning.

I want to wake up next her her every morning. I want to love her everyday. I've tried thinking of my life before i met her and I don't even remember what it was like. She is my everything.

She's the reason I want to wake up in the morning. She's the reason I do my best in everything I've done so far.

Nikki makes me a better person and she makes me insanely happy. I feel like when I'm with people they get annoyed about how much I talk about her. I think they are wanting me to shit up and not say anything else.

But I can't I just have to talk about her. She's my life. My whole life and I've literally never loved anyone the same way.

I don't think I even know what love is without her. I've said before that I was in love but compared to Nikki, I wasn't. Being with Nikki is love. It's true love. She's my love. She's my life.

I had a day off today which is a nice change. And two days later, Nikki would come spend a day with me. Given it was only one night, I had to make it special.

And now more than ever since we were constantly apart, I needed Nikki to know how much she means to me. How much I love her and never want to live without her.

I called up my best friend from high school, Eli, who I've kept in contact with and I asked him to come fly out for the day. Of course I paid for his flight out to see me. And of course he said yes.

I didn't tell him why I wanted him here, I just told him I needed him with me when I did the most important thing in my life.

I waited in the back seat of a car at the airport for him. I saw him come out from the automatic sliding doors and I rolled down the window and waved to get his attention. He saw me right away and came over with a bag.

The driver got out, took the bag from him and opened the door. I slid over so he could get in.

"Oi! Harry, how's it going mate!?" he asked as he got in.

"Great" I say and the door closed behind him. We embraced and then sat in our respective seats.

"So, what's this big secret you've been keeping?" he asked me, and the driver gets back in the front and starts to drive to our destination.

"Well, you know the girl I've been dating?"

"Nikki? Yeah, she's gorgeous and you look like you're completely in love with her from pictures I've seen" he says with a smile.

"Well, we are going to a jewelry store" I say and he nods slowly, not following along. So I help him out, "To buy her an engagement ring."

His mouth drops open but quickly turns to a smile, "You're going to propose to her?!"

I just nod my head with a big smile.

"Harry, you've only been with her for like five months" he says, getting a little skeptical, "Are you giving me a hard time?"

I shake my head, "No, Eli! I seriously love her. And I want to be with her forever" I tell him.

He looks at me and slowly nods, "But what if that changes?"

I shake my head again, "Mate, my love for her will never change. Believe me when I say I have never felt this way for someone before. She makes me feel- I don't know! I don't know how to describe it other than love" I tell him.

He nods but smiles, "Well, mate, if you truly feel this way for her, I'm happy for you and I support you!"

I grin, that's why he's one of my best friends, "Thank you" I say as we pull up to the jewelry store.