I Love You (Jack Johnson)

Part 5

*Alana's POV*

I know I told Jack I threw all my blades away, which I did. But I managed to self-harm again. Hence why I'm lying in the hospital crying. You probably want the whole story?

Well after I had walked back to Niamh and basically yelled at the girl I told Niamh to make her way over to Joe, the security man, as he was allowing us to hang out with the lads. She grabbed our things and made her way over. Me? Well I was getting so much stick for sticking up for Jack. The girl who had said Jack didn't deserve to be in Magcon said some things and we ended up full on arguing until she said something that basically drove me over the top.

"You're a worthless piece of shit and you should just go and jump off a cliff! Nobody likes you. Not even your sister!" She said.

I basically legged it after that was said. I ran backstage and past Shawn and Aaron who were sat on chairs talking to each other. I had found a bathroom and locked the door. I'm guessing it was where Mahogany goes to when the show is on cause it had so many girly things. I found a razor and took it apart and started cutting.

The lads and Niamh were running past the door shouting my name for a good five minutes before Gilinsky saw blood seeping under the door. Cameron had even kicked the door down just so they could get into the room.

Here I am now. In the hospital room. Trying to register what my own sister had said to me. She near lost me. Twice. In the space of a year. I guess I either cut too much the first time or cut too deep. Either way it isn't a nice feeling knowing that your sister is crying because of you.

"You ok?" Jack asked snapping me out of my thoughts.

"I guess so. I just wish I never said anything back to that girl now." I said looking up to him.

"What even happened?" He asked looking at me.

"She had said you shouldn't be in Magcon and how you weren't even funny. I flipped and then she crossed the line. That made me run and end up here." I said starting to cry.

"Hey it's ok. You're ok now. You're still here." Jack said.

"Jack? Can you ask if anyone wants to come in?" I asked.

Jack nodded his head and went and opened the door. Soon enough everyone but Niamh and Carter came into the room. I guess Carter is comforting Niamh.

"How you feeling?" Hayes asked.

"Not too bad. Just sore." I said smiling slightly.

"You kinda scared Cam. I mean he knocked the door down and started shaking." Taylor said looking over to Cameron.

"Sorry bout that. I guess cutting has always been my escape. Even though I threw my blades out and stopped cutting I still punched pillows to take my anger and frustration out on things." I said looking down.

"Oh yeah. The nurse said you can leave whenever you want to." Mahogany said clapping her hands. I can seriously see me and Mahogany becoming good friends.

"Let's go then! Is Niamh ok?" I asked.

"She seems pretty upset. She came out and just cried. Carter started to comfort her. I guess he took her outside or for a walk to call down cause they're no longer in the waiting room." Nash said opening the door.

"Oh." Was all I managed to say.

I walked out of the room with Mahogany. The boys started to follow. We walked to the desk so I could sign out.

"Hello how may I help you love?" The woman asked.

"Hiya. I'd like to sign out please?" I said quietly.

"Of course dear. What's your name?" She asked again.

"Alana McCullough." I replied looking at her.

She handed me the book and I signed my name. I handed the book back and we headed out the door. There was a limo outside when we arrived.

"A limo?" I asked confused.

"Yeah. It's for us. If I'm not mistaken Dillon and Sammy are in there too." Taylor said running for the door.

"Does he mean Dillon Rupp and Sammy Wilk?" I asked laughing at how excited Taylor looked.

"Yup!" Cameron said popping the p.

Taylor opened the limo door and jumped into it without any bother. Literally jumped into it. Man he's crazy and that's what I love about Taylor. Taylor just doesn't care what people think of him.

"You ok? You coming in?" I heard someone ask.

I looked up and saw Sammy at the door. I smiled and walked towards the limo.

"Yeah I'm fine. I guess." I replied as I got to the door.

Sammy held his hand out for me to take ahold of so he could help me into the limo.

"Niamh isn't answering her phone guys. Do you think she's ignoring me because of what's happened?" I asked looking up.

"She's your twin sister Alana. She can't ignore you forever if she is ignoring you. She's probably just upset. Hey where's Carter?" Dillon said then looking around the limo.

"He's with Niamh. She kinda walked out of the hospital room earlier after snapping at Alana. I understand why she snapped. She didn't want to be told again that her sister was close to completely ending her life." Johnson said.

"This isn't your first time?" Aaron asked.

"Nope. I used to cut a lot and stopped and threw my blades away after the first time. But it wasn't all down to me ending up in hospital that stopped, Johnson was part of the reason. I guess it hit me that if I kept cutting I'd never be able to meet you guys and I would never have been able to stay in America for a year before actually deciding if I want to live here." I said looking at Aaron.

I hadn't realised I was crying until Sammy pulled me in close to him and whispered that everything will be ok.