exhausted
numbers, math, counting, checking
tiring
thoughts, feelings, actions, habits
stop
the process
the loss
the isolation
the pain
im tired
overworking overdosing
im exhausted
overthinking overdoing
my chest
my hips
my legs
my face
changes, change, changed
not fast enough
not healthy enough
never enough
who's it for
it's me
it's you
it's him
he broke it
you showed me
I wanted this
she was pure
she never harmed
she never hurt
except inside
except for you
isolation, isolate, isolated
falling away
becoming further
locking away
locked down
chained to myself
encased by bedding
fake piled on faith
closed captions on open minds
closed minds in power
I'm tired
I'm sorry
can't hold on
can't make it
can't wait
can't see clear
minds a mess
brains homicidal
thoughts are pests
disorders run amok
I'm still healing
but did i ever start
I'm still trying
but did i ever want to
small hopes
i know are wrong
big wishes
never to come true
I'm stuck
I'm trying
i can move
do i want to? am i going to?
i can't move
I'm not stuck
where am i
am i lying
to myself
to you
to my friend
to myself
